as happy as i am right now, i can't get scotty out of my head.  its not like i think about him constantly, but there are certain days where i think about him.  i am not sure what triggers it though.  i care about him still, and i want to know how he is ( Read more... )

Do you hate the last guy you talked to?
nope, not at all, i love him :)

When is the last time you took a nap?
uhmmmm saturday i think

Do you only drink bottled water?
not lately....im all about the brita!

What are you listening to right now?
TV

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
scotty baby

To send you a Myspace message?
i really dont know

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i love cough syrup with codeine in it.  it will definitely calm my nerves and help me sleep!!  even though it tastes like shit ( Read more... )

 im so sorry.

for every thing.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.

i hope i am forgiven for every sin i have made.

i miss sleeping with scotty.  i miss him rolling over when we wake up and feeling his arms around me.  i cannot wait for that :)

i love him so much.  im so happy we are getting better :)  i want him all the way again! not this halfass stuff anymore :)

scotty, i just want to make you so happy again.  thats all i want is for you to be happy.

1. I've come to realize that my boobs:
→ have gotten bigger and i love them

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
→ i tend to studder when i get nervous

3. I've come to realize that, when I love someone:
→ its the best feeling in the world..to love and be loved

4. I've come to realize that I need:
→ to eat something before i faint

5. I've come to ( Read more... )

how long do you hold on for?  when are you supposed to even know when to let go ( Read more... )

great.  he isnt happy with us anymore ( Read more... )

great.  he isnt happy with us anymore.

i bet you he wants to be without me now because i dont make him happy anymore.

thats just great.

this makes everything worse

i am so fucking tired of this distance.  i am so tired of being in a fucking long distance relationship.  when i really need him, he isnt there.  and its just so fucking frustrating.  i hate it.  so maybe after i go there, we'll decide whether or not to stay together.  because him being there is ruining our relationship.  its making me absolutely ( Read more... )