Can't close my eyes without thinking of you

[mindthejake]

I am but one guy, one guy who can't control his emotions. Nobody can control their emotions, no matter how much they try. They can mask their emotions, but when the emotions come out its at a bad time

Comments

[lykeomgzcassie]

Umm..wow..

[mindthejake]

???

[lykeomgzcassie]

I don't know what to say?

[mindthejake]

I'm sorry for everything, I wish I would have seen how I was before all this happened.

[__sexy__mirry__]

Jake, I'm amazed by how much you wrote. And especially bringing out your feelings like that. One of your paragraphs made me smile, and be proud. And it wasn't about me. It was about you. How you said everyone makes mistakes. And that its not anyone's fault. And, that you have to forgive yourself first, then let everyone else decide to forgive you. I like that positive side, because that's exactly what I think. That's exactly what I want you to think.

[mindthejake]

Well you've certainly brought me to this point. I could be in a very dark stage of my life right now, which was where I was headed, but you're my sun. You keep me from being in the dark. You are the sunlight in my life.

[__sexy__mirry__]

Wow, thanks.

Just letting you know... I've been sitting on my computer chair for last 10 minutes, maybe even more, and all I've writen was "Wow, thanks." How sad haha.

But, that really means a lot to me. Just like, you mean a lot to me. And, I'm glad I'm your sun, so that, you wouldn't be in that awful dark stage. Which I would hate a lot if it did happen.

You've also changed my life to view it a different point. Without you, my life would pretty much be lame, and useless.

[mindthejake]

Haha, I made you speechless again.

I'm glad you're my sun too. I know I can always depend on you, which helps with the dark times. You show much more intelligence and compassion then most of the people I know.

I'm sure your life wouldn't be lame and useless without me.

[shenae_nae_x3]

Wow, I'm just kind of blown away by this whole post. I'm not quite sure what to say and there's alot of things in it that I want to comment on, but I don't know what to say or how to even begin to say them

[mindthejake]

I'm glad this post made an impact on you. I was hoping it would impact everyone, make them think a little

[shenae_nae_x3]

Well yeah it definately impacted me. =)

I just feel bad for my actions through everything. That's why I'm still apologizing. I mean I wish I knew what people were going through when they experience a lose like that, but I don't want to lose someone close to me, because I see how they hurt. I should have at least been alittle more sensitive to your feelings through it all, even if I didn't have any idea how you felt. That isn't an excuse for being a loser, lol.

Anyways, are you back in TO yet? Are you even coming back? Cause I wanna hang out some.

[[Yeah, mine's not really similar to anything they're going through. Kind of the whole Shenae/Mir thing. Me and my best friend are growing apart and it just sucks really bad. Plus I was listening to some sad emo music so I was all tears, lol.]]

[mindthejake]

It's the past though, you can't change it. I know you wish you could have been different, but I think everybody does. I hope you don't have to experience a loss like that anytime soon. When you do experience a loss though, just know that I'll be here for you.

Yes, I got back Friday night. Well then I went to Jersey for a few hours, but I really didn't want to stay. So yes, I'm back. We can definantly hang out sometime.

[[ah yes, sad emo music DEFINANTLY can do that to you... ugh it does that to me too much, lol]]

[miss_farber]

Umm..wow..
Word...

[[jake epstein's a PIMP... had to throw a happy mood in there lol]]

[miss_farber]

I'm replying to myself, because, once my eyes stopped hurting due to the length (that was a joke Jake), I went back and reread it. Of course, I feel weird writing this when I really could just come knock on your hotel door and tell you, but that's not happening, and it's kind of early.

Anyways, back to what I was gonna say, which just slipped my mind... Right, okay, I'm back on track. Our relationship, not romantically speaking, just in general, was, and still is, an extremely awkward one. Like you said, we'll never get back to where we were, no matter how hard we try, if we're even trying.

Of course, you're still there when I need you, even if it's at two in the morning. You're always there for me, and I need that, so I just wanted to say thanks, for being there. And even though it doesn't seem like it, I'll always be here for you, if and whenever you need me.

I think that was it. And you should be aware I went through about 5 Fall Out Boy songs while I was typing this.

[mindthejake]

I wish we could get things back to how it used to be, but it won't happen. People grow up and grow apart. We both have said some pretty terrible things to eachother that we just can't take back.

Whenever you need anything, you can call on me. I care alot about you, I hate to see you in pain. Whatever it is I can do to help you, I will do it.

[lykeomgzcassie]

Yay, someone agrees with me :)