Can't close my eyes without thinking of you

[mindthejake]

I am but one guy, one guy who can't control his emotions. Nobody can control their emotions, no matter how much they try. They can mask their emotions, but when the emotions come out its at a bad time

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[mindthejake]

I'm glad this post made an impact on you. I was hoping it would impact everyone, make them think a little.

There's no need to apologize for the past. It's the past, just have to move on from it. The only reason I wrote all of that in there was because I was thinking of everything between us and that happened to be a huge part of it. I wish you would have been better with my grandmothers death, but then again nobody really was. I was leaning on Kate for that. Stace was there in a way but she was just there to be my drinking buddy and to keep my mind off of it, which didn't happen too much. I don't think anyones really dealt with death that could have helped me in the situation, so don't be sorry for it. When I haven't dealt with a situation first hand then I have no idea what to do or how to act.

[[awww sorry it made you cry. I get really emotional at times too, and this whole situation reminds me of something similar that I went through a year ago (except I was more in Mir's position then anyones) so I had to go back a re-live it. It was hard, I cried a couple times during rps of all of this and when I was writing this entry. Made me re-think things in my own life, lol. But yes, music that goes along with your situation never helps, lol.]]

[shenae_nae_x3]

Well yeah it definately impacted me. =)

I just feel bad for my actions through everything. That's why I'm still apologizing. I mean I wish I knew what people were going through when they experience a lose like that, but I don't want to lose someone close to me, because I see how they hurt. I should have at least been alittle more sensitive to your feelings through it all, even if I didn't have any idea how you felt. That isn't an excuse for being a loser, lol.

Anyways, are you back in TO yet? Are you even coming back? Cause I wanna hang out some.

[[Yeah, mine's not really similar to anything they're going through. Kind of the whole Shenae/Mir thing. Me and my best friend are growing apart and it just sucks really bad. Plus I was listening to some sad emo music so I was all tears, lol.]]

[mindthejake]

It's the past though, you can't change it. I know you wish you could have been different, but I think everybody does. I hope you don't have to experience a loss like that anytime soon. When you do experience a loss though, just know that I'll be here for you.

Yes, I got back Friday night. Well then I went to Jersey for a few hours, but I really didn't want to stay. So yes, I'm back. We can definantly hang out sometime.

[[ah yes, sad emo music DEFINANTLY can do that to you... ugh it does that to me too much, lol]]

[shenae_nae_x3]

Aw, that's sweet Jake. I hope I don't experience loss anytime soon too, but if I do I'm glad you'll be there.

Oh well yeah, we'll have to hang out very soon then. =)

[[yeah, he does that to me ALL the time, lol.]]