one day i will learn not to get my hopes up because of what you say. i should know that just because you claim to hold me in such high regards means shit, because your still to immature to realize that the world is not about you, and more importantly you dont have to make it a priority to please and impress people you just met. especially when it ( Read more... )

so ive came to the realization that i only use this thing when i feel overwhelmed by my own emotions and need a good outlet...so here goes ( Read more... )

i am not a mind reader,and therefor i dont know if you are mad. i have decided that the best way to deal with things at this point is to just not care. i have tried to be nice, talk, etc but yet i always offend someone, so now i just wnat to be what i am, and if you have a problem, say it, otherwise drop it.

i apoligize for those of you that i hurt, and i suppose the friendships that i somehow ruined. im just trying to live my life, realize what its all about, and be happy. im sorry if i have hurt you, i apoligize i really do. ive always tried to make everyone else happy often resulting in my own disappointment and pain, and for once i follow your ( Read more... )

so i have been home for the past three weeks and it really made me learn alot. i realized how much i have changed, and much for the better, and i realized that this isnt really home. its my past, its easy, not challenging, never changes, and safe. i was looking forward to coming home so badly, and now i realize it was just because things got rough ( Read more... )

its my birthday which is the absolute shit...much like me...but basically at the same time, as fun as the last two weeks have been i still think this is my worst birthday ever, i am away from my family, have finals, i am an hour from home, with a broken phone, and no real best friend. sweet shit. but for real, im ready to go homeand move on. i cant ( Read more... )

it is storming and i ultimately hate thunder storms. one being that i cant help but to feel complete vulnerable and in need of some type of companionship. i guess my true hate comes from my childhood when everytime it would storm badly i would run to the basement and place a helmet on my head in fear of it turning into a tornado. but now that i am ( Read more... )

well much has changed since january, and i think i'd like to give this journal thing another whirl. I'm up at MSU and i absolutely love it. but i will say its put a lot into perspective for me, I've really learned which hometown friends are actually true friends. and thats very few, im not much of the AIM chatter, just becuz its so impersonable, so ( Read more... )

its not even fun anymore. florida is saturday, money is tight, and i have WAY to much shit to do before i leafe. inductions, work, and a yearbook page due, along with packing, dress issues etc. then there is the inductions themselves in which i am in no shape to give a speech at. third, spring break. it seems like im CONSTANTLY fighting everyone ( Read more... )

i did it! i have always just wanted to go to state and im on. now im looking forward to a life of debt and partying with the roomy dotty! im super excited!and friday is the car show followed by florida next week can life get any better right now?