i will learn
one day i will learn not to get my hopes up because of what you say. i should know that just because you claim to hold me in such high regards means shit, because your still to immature to realize that the world is not about you, and more importantly you dont have to make it a priority to please and impress people you just met. especially when it results in you pouring salt into a wound you have been trying to help me heal. ive learned ways to keep it bandaged so that no furthur pain was felt, but you helped to convince me to let it heal and encouraged what never should have been started. the worst part is, for someone so close to me, you cannot even tell what your doing, or even that im actually upset. you of all people should know. but this is something that i should have expected, because lets be honest, its a one sided thing. im starting to think that your like alcohol, when i remember the limit its all fun, but as soon as i forget i end up sick.