so i havent used this thing in months....
well much has changed since january, and i think i'd like to give this journal thing another whirl. I'm up at MSU and i absolutely love it. but i will say its put a lot into perspective for me, I've really learned which hometown friends are actually true friends. and thats very few, im not much of the AIM chatter, just becuz its so impersonable, so therefor i go a long amount of time without talking to most people. but thats ok, it puts things into perspective. but must of all since ive been up here ive realized something much more important, I need to learn to depend on me. and only me. sure most of my friends will be right next to me if i need them, and my family too, but what about when somethnig isnt occuring? thats when I need to be content and dependable on myself. Its very hard to learn, and honestly i dont think i would ever have learned it if i was sitting at home working at Outback. I've learned that the real world is REAL, and that shit happens. we all have to learn to roll with the punches and keep moving, because life really does go on. when you dont have mommy and daddy holding your hand and giving you those rules, everything changes. and as silly as it is, i miss it. i miss having them there to make sure im ok. when i need something, or everything is wrong and all i want to do is cry to my mom, i cant, not without miles between us. so for all of you still out home, i kno it sucks, (on your own is what we'd all hope), but there are certain things that arent the same. so look at the brightside...and if all else fails, atleast your not eating cafeteria food all day!