In my personal life, I have come across the common discussions about love. Love found, love lost, how people lose love and a whole host of similar questions and statements. I've been thinking about love as a concept and how we generally handle this concept. I want to explore the idea of love and some of the errors in the way in which we handle love ( Read more... )

Often when I speak to my peers on the affects of aging, I'm told of many things lost. Lost options with women, lost friends, lost opportunities, lost vigor, and lost passion. I've also been told of accumulation; accumulation of pain, accumulation of regret, an accumulation of doubt and a accumulation of unworthiness. I look upon their faces and can ( Read more... )

Hey LJ,

I think it's been a long long time since I've written here. This exercise in writing will become a permanent practice to hone my skills in writing and to express myself. I require a reference to call back to when I need to tap into my feelings.

I need this reference to become a song writer. Even at my current age I still wish to pursue ( Read more... )

Hey all who still possess a live journal. I'm surprised that this thing is still here. Sometimes, when I'm really curious about if I've progressed as a human being, I come here. I read these old passages, and every time it's like scratching an old scab. I am now 24 and I'm sitting here, still wondering about my path and where I should head. Perhaps ( Read more... )

Well these past few days have been pretty alright. I've been preparing myself for the venue today. I'm more willing then ever to put myself out there. I have the support of my friends and some of my family. That is all I need. The fear, the doubt will be nonexistent as I plunge myself fully into the ideal of momentary power and pleasure. Perhaps I' ( Read more... )

About a year ago I made a hard decision to stop writing because the feelings I felt hurt more then they helped at the time. Sometimes I would wonder how it would have been if I did continue to write, but I know that I can't change the past. In the year that passed by I learned alot of lessons about myself, the lifestyle I live, the true meaning of ( Read more... )

This is my last entry. I've grown tired of writing, it doesn't help much. I already know what I have to do and this has served it's purpose. Goodbye

Funny how life is so foggy at times and how others the path is so clear. Impossible doesn't exist anymore in my mind. I've done so much in the last few days that I'm amazed that I haven't done this well in a while. I've also gave myself new rules to live by...

1. Forget people who WANT to be miserable and shitty. They're just a pain in the ass. ( Read more... )

The last few days have been alright. I've been just getting my life together so by the end of the month I can make my next big step towards satisfaction. I'm starting to realize what I truly want and what I don't. I've noticed that I destroyed alot of the negative mental barriers that I've held in the past. Also I've learned more about my emotions ( Read more... )

Momentum is everything. With the proper start, you can create a wonderful path. The most difficult part of momentum is to get it started, but once it's starts, it's all over. =d That goes for "good" and "bad". =p

My b-day passed! It was awesome! People who didn't wish me or see me, wish me on Friday at CF! =D