Well everything is coming along, most of the major things are done. Still need a photographer, though. Printing out the invitations next week. I am on the fence about inviting certain people. The wedding is extremely small as it is and we are pretty limited as to how many people we can invite because of our budget. I don't want people to be ( Read more... )

I feel like I always start out the fact that I never write here anymore. So I will skip over that fact and move on to random musings. Sober House on vh1 fucks me up. First off, the whole premise kinda pisses me off and yet I still want to watch it. I mean exploiting people during their most vulnerable times, regardless if they are getting paid, for ( Read more... )

A lot of things have held me back my whole life. One thing that has always held me back is what people think of me, their assumptions and judgments. I am working really hard to over come that. I feel like a lot of people in my life have or have had certain expectations of me and I have come to realize that no matter what I do I will never meet ( Read more... )

I wish I could shout this from the roof tops, but then I feel like everyone wishing me a Happy Birthday would think I am ungrateful. Today is my birthday. I am 24 years old. I have accomplished nothing, haven't been successful in anything and am basically an epic failure. So really what is there to celebrate about, I am one year older and have ( Read more... )

So this is Christmas/ And what have you done
Another year over/ And a new one just begun
And so this is Christmas/ I hope you have fun
The near and the dear one/ The old and the young
A very merry Christmas/ And a happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one/ Without any fear
And so this is Christmas/ For weak and for strong
For rich and the poor ones/ The ( Read more... )

Ugh, lately I have been noticing that I am starting to lose that youthful glow. I have noticed that I have aged quite a bit over the last year or so and I am kind of depressed about it. When I was young I could never understand how adults, "let themselves go", but uh yeah I have definitely kind of reached that point. I could lose about 15 lbs and I ( Read more... )

All the stress and anxiety is just wrecking me. I don't know how much longer I can take it. It's like I didn't even get to enjoy my engagement before shit hit the fan. It's supposed to be one of the happier times in my life and instead its just been filled with stress and worry. Ugh, even wedding planning keeps hitting major snags.

Lately (aka pretty much the past year and a half), it's been one struggle after another. I try to mainly keep things to myself, because I find that most of my friendships now are more superficial and more about having company than a real person you can count on. Although, I definitely find having that kind of a relationship is much easier than ( Read more... )

It's official, finally engaged. It was a wonderful weekend in the Adirondack's celebrating last weekends 2 year anniversary and getting engaged. The whole ring thing was horrible, stressful and took way too long and it is relieving to finally be officially engaged. Now on to the stress of planning a wedding. lol

I am not an ignorant souless bastard, nor are you a socialist nazi ( Read more... )