There was a flash of brick and then I saw the side streets. I ran to them, down them, twisted my way through them like a labyrinth. I didn't want to be followed. I screamed for help at the dark-lit houses around me. I wailed at them pleadingly with no response. My mind was so filled with fear I didn't even know what help meant. I made it out of the ( Read more... )

I'm so destroyed. Why did this happen to me? Why do I keep living in such a disgusting reality? I just want to stop existing. RIGHT. NOW. Hughie, I told you I wouldn't live past May of the year you died. Why have I? You were the only thing keeping me alive and now you're dead. I should have died, not you. I'm not fit for this world. I don't want to ( Read more... )

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I just buzzed most of my hair off.

I'm going to the police station in ten minutes.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous.

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I gave my official statement. I really with there was more content in it. While I was at the police station I felt like I looked more like a criminal than a victim. Being left in the room alone, I was unsettled by the ( Read more... )

GERAAHHGRHAHH

I couldn't fucking sleep last night.
I was twitching violently.
Everytime I closed my eyes I saw him.

FRUEEGUGUH

The police aren't acting quick enough and I'm afraid to do too much personal invesitgation incase that could be considered "tampering" with evidence. Meanwhile I'm wrecked and this guy is getting ready to go out again next ( Read more... )

I had an emotional breakdown. There were too many feelings running through my mind and heart. Between the hate crime rape, the issue with my brother, my father's overdose, and friend drama, I snapped. I phoned a friend of mine and I freaked out on her. It lasted all of one minute in which I just cried and yelled hysterically in no coherant fashion ( Read more... )

I love you guys. Thank you all for being my friends. You don't know how much your support means to me. Some of you have really surprised me. You know I'll always be here for you too, but hopefully nothing this terrible will ever happen to you. I don't have much to say, and what I do have to say is just cheesemo.

Thank you Q, Kendra, Candace, and ( Read more... )

I've put this entry behind an LJ cut because it might be viewed as graphic or disturbing to many of you. I'm posting this more for myself. You do not have to read this.

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