summertime is leaving me soon.
i'm realizing a lot of things. i'm been feeling very lonely, but i realize i just need to get over it. i have the Lord and He is all i need. but the lonely i have been feeling isn't a spiritual loneliness necessarily, but rather an earthbound loneliness. it's a worthless thing to have. i mean, i just am haunted by my past. it reminds me of the mae song "summertime." the lyrics say "go on ahead and let it fade away. no looking back you know the past will stay." that is definitely true. just as lot was advised when leaving sodom and gomorrah not to look back, i must also not look back on sin. i must learn from it, but not dwell on it. the more i dwell, the more i am just feeling sorry for myself and taking my eyes off of God and putting them right on my selfish heart. so i shouldn't worry about that special girl waltzing into my life. i should wait until we waltz into each others. the Lord's perfect timing will definitely arrange for that.