this is totally what Im feelin' at the moment..since star is anti-update here lately (Just kiddin girl, i love ya!) im gonna update for her..with what i want ( Read more... )

..well I've returned :) I hadn't realized that it had been this long since I had last updated, sorry! But I've been in Oklahoma doing nothing but resting, relaxing, soaking up some sweet "country" sun and recovering, both physically & emotionally. Its been a very very fun trip ( Read more... )

+I wonder if I will ever fully recover
+I want assurance
+I wonder if he ever did love me
+I wonder if i was just some piece of ass and his arm candy
+I wonder if i ever did make him happy
+..does he think about me, ever?
+Is he happy with the decisions he's made?
+I wonder if he thought about me when he was out with those girls..did it bother him to ( Read more... )

So, I ran away ( Read more... )

These past two days have been pure hell, ive never been in so much pain. i made a huge mistake of going to the beach the other night, and an even bigger mistake when i allowed this guy who is really a straight up jerk, to get me a drink (sprite) and go with him to look at his new mustang. I always knew this guy was a little wild and i guess i ( Read more... )

im so confused...okay well im convinced, guys are the devil. Im so over the whole part where i throw myself out there and become vulnerable to someone. Thats one V word that I hate! It sucks! Guys are just grrrrr ( Read more... )

I could not sleep at all last night, so this morning I finally rolled out of bed at 5:30. I showered grabbed a smoothie and went down to the beach. Wow...the sunrise over the ocean is absolutely breathtaking. That is one of the reasons why I LOVe living here, its so peaceful. I ran 'till about 7:15 and just got back a few minutes ago. Running ( Read more... )

Moments after I posted my first masterpiece my friend Jilly enlightened me that perhaps people would want to know a lil about me. Hm..makes sense! :) Well, forgive me for not making this my *1st* entry..but ohwell, here goes. if anyone has any q's for me, just commnt ( Read more... )

Well..so im trying something different out! A new journal of sorts, hopefully it will prove to be promising ( Read more... )