this might be kind of graphic...
These past two days have been pure hell, ive never been in so much pain. i made a huge mistake of going to the beach the other night, and an even bigger mistake when i allowed this guy who is really a straight up jerk, to get me a drink (sprite) and go with him to look at his new mustang. I always knew this guy was a little wild and i guess i shouldve just turned him down but oh no, me, being the forgiving, "believing there is good in everyone no matter how bad they are",person accepted his offer. I dont even know if i have to say the rest..im sure its pretty obvious. But i want to put it on here (yes for anyone to read, i dont care anymore) Well..we walked about a half a mile where he was parked and started looking at his mustang (by this time I had taken a few little drinks and thought it tasted kinda funny so i laid it down) i remember he was showing me his rims when i started to feel really light headed like i was going to pass out, so i was like, "- I need to sit down, i feel like im going to.." then I guess i did pass out, i dont know for how long but i remember coming to and he was on top of me and i could not breath at all so of course when someone cant breath even for a second they panic and panic i did. I tried screaming but i couldnt i looked up at him and he laughed, atleast thats what it looked like to me. I do remember that i tried sitting up and my head was throbbing so i laid back down. I guess i laid there for an hour?? Because the next thing i do remember is that megra and jillian are pouring water on my face and telling me to wake up. i heard a bunch of guys yelling in the background and my face and (another place) just absolutely killing me. I got up and apparently someone took me home, well obviously, but i guess i passed out again? Because i woke up in my bed the next morning...
so yesterday i literally stayed in bed all day i just felt like my insides were being ripped out and my face/head hurt so bad... so thats what happened.. my face is bruised from my left cheek bone, covering my eye and i think well i hope that its from when i passed out i may have hit the car? yeah..
mom doesnt know what happened, i just told her its food poisoning and she left me alone. i just dont want to tell her. I put it on my journal because the people that may read this have no clue who I am and that's okay. a few friends of mine do know i have this and that's okay too. i dont care if people read this and they know.
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thank you chad & megra for calling me and leaving me messages. I love you guys and i do appreciate it.
right now..im going to take a bath..so if anyone needs me, they know how to get a hold of me.
`StAr