whew!
Oh is my brain fried or what. Man. I feel really out of it... I'd like to comment more on y'all's posts and stuff but I don't think I've got the mental capacity to handle it right now. Maybe after a good night's sleep tonight... Thanks y'all for being encouraging and nice and thoughtful. Sorry if all my posts lately have been a bit incoherent or worrisome!
I have barely enough of a brain to manage some kinda summary of Lately With Lys (I don't know what that is, I just made it up on the spot). Ummm... the taxes thing is figured out and should be good to go-I got all the paperwork figured out last night All By Myself!!!! (with a little help from referencing last year's forms and the online trial-ish version of TurboTax) After my frustration after finishing all those illustrations only to be faced with the tax mess, I was happy I could finally enjoy my sense of Great Achievement. Yaaaay! I got the actual how-can-I-afford-to-pay-what-I-owe stuff figured out too, so I am delightfully worry-free now.
I'm really looking forward to sleeping tonight too. The last couple nights my dreams have been stressful (dreaming about work, laundry that needed to get done)/unpleasant, probably a reflection of all my worrying. So hopefully tonight now that everything is done (except the bookcover, still. aaaaarg! but I'm not stressed about it because it should be relatively simple and definitely fun) I'll get some restful rest. Okay, I'll admit it-for all that I like to write and talk optimistically, I can worry myself into a state just fine. But I think I still usually am able to step back and analyze my stress logically. It's just that my emotions/moodiness don't always run alongside what my logic is telling me. Or something? But, here's something nice-this morning when we went to work (mum and I work at the same store) I told her she should park on the opposite side of the parking lot, so that if it got sunny out this afternoon the car would be all toasty and nice (it was all cloudy and dreary, had been raining all the day before). She didn't, because she said it wouldn't get sunny. I told her to be optimistic! and she said that she liked to be realistic! Soooo... guess what happened this afternoon? ☼ (if that doesn't show up, it was supposed to be a sunshine :D) Optimist-power wins again!! (in her favour, I'll say that if we had parked in the sun, it might have been too warm in the car-the weather was so nice today!!)
I also reread Me & My Brothers 5 yesterday, because I needed to choose something to read on the bus to-and-from school for modeling. That series is just so happy and nice. It's perfect for when I'm looking for something to escape from my own worries (and also perfect for when I just want to read something happy and nice). I'll never get over how much I love Tokeino-sensei's middle-aged-men doodles. And her Santas. And little kids. (awwww, I read the Tortoise and Hare "Heartwarming Theater" last night before bed and it was just so...♥ It was so cute I could just cry. Takeshi, you little darling!) Actually, drawing the A2Z H-book, full of Santa and candy canes and such, kept reminding me of Tokeino-sensei. (also, weirdly, Morinaga Ai, since one of the drawings was of Santa in a Hawaiian shirt relaxing, and I couldn't get images of the grandpa from Your & My Secret out of my head. aaaaah creepy!!) Anyway, right now I'm just going to think about the happy and cute Me & My Brothers.
Sooooo... I think this is enough rambling for now. Lastly, happy birthday to everyone who had a birthday today (I think there's three of you on my friends list! goodness!) or yesterday (Lindseyyyy~!). Hope you all had fun and enjoyable days, spent in most excellent company! Love you all! ♥
I have barely enough of a brain to manage some kinda summary of Lately With Lys (I don't know what that is, I just made it up on the spot). Ummm... the taxes thing is figured out and should be good to go-I got all the paperwork figured out last night All By Myself!!!! (with a little help from referencing last year's forms and the online trial-ish version of TurboTax) After my frustration after finishing all those illustrations only to be faced with the tax mess, I was happy I could finally enjoy my sense of Great Achievement. Yaaaay! I got the actual how-can-I-afford-to-pay-what-I-owe stuff figured out too, so I am delightfully worry-free now.
I'm really looking forward to sleeping tonight too. The last couple nights my dreams have been stressful (dreaming about work, laundry that needed to get done)/unpleasant, probably a reflection of all my worrying. So hopefully tonight now that everything is done (except the bookcover, still. aaaaarg! but I'm not stressed about it because it should be relatively simple and definitely fun) I'll get some restful rest. Okay, I'll admit it-for all that I like to write and talk optimistically, I can worry myself into a state just fine. But I think I still usually am able to step back and analyze my stress logically. It's just that my emotions/moodiness don't always run alongside what my logic is telling me. Or something? But, here's something nice-this morning when we went to work (mum and I work at the same store) I told her she should park on the opposite side of the parking lot, so that if it got sunny out this afternoon the car would be all toasty and nice (it was all cloudy and dreary, had been raining all the day before). She didn't, because she said it wouldn't get sunny. I told her to be optimistic! and she said that she liked to be realistic! Soooo... guess what happened this afternoon? ☼ (if that doesn't show up, it was supposed to be a sunshine :D) Optimist-power wins again!! (in her favour, I'll say that if we had parked in the sun, it might have been too warm in the car-the weather was so nice today!!)
I also reread Me & My Brothers 5 yesterday, because I needed to choose something to read on the bus to-and-from school for modeling. That series is just so happy and nice. It's perfect for when I'm looking for something to escape from my own worries (and also perfect for when I just want to read something happy and nice). I'll never get over how much I love Tokeino-sensei's middle-aged-men doodles. And her Santas. And little kids. (awwww, I read the Tortoise and Hare "Heartwarming Theater" last night before bed and it was just so...♥ It was so cute I could just cry. Takeshi, you little darling!) Actually, drawing the A2Z H-book, full of Santa and candy canes and such, kept reminding me of Tokeino-sensei. (also, weirdly, Morinaga Ai, since one of the drawings was of Santa in a Hawaiian shirt relaxing, and I couldn't get images of the grandpa from Your & My Secret out of my head. aaaaah creepy!!) Anyway, right now I'm just going to think about the happy and cute Me & My Brothers.
Sooooo... I think this is enough rambling for now. Lastly, happy birthday to everyone who had a birthday today (I think there's three of you on my friends list! goodness!) or yesterday (Lindseyyyy~!). Hope you all had fun and enjoyable days, spent in most excellent company! Love you all! ♥