I had just finished re-watching The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 and it had made me realize just how similar I feel to those girls.  I feel out of touch with myself and out of touch with my life ever since I started college.  I hadn't realized why that sounded so similar until I watched it again, recalling how Carmen bungled her way through ( Read more... )

hmm It seems that I am perhaps overdue for an entry, especially since school has started for most people.  Well I went on a massive blow-out shopping trip in Portland (yay! no sales tax) on Saturday, meaning I have little money left but that's good cuz I have overhauled my urge to shop.  Thus I am perfectly content to do absolutely nothing.  ( Read more... )

I am panicking.  I have never been prone emotional upswings until this year; I don't do emotional.  I focus and operate under rational thinking. Most of the time.  I am panicking now that a lot of the things that I've worked for have finally fallen into place.  I applied to Columbia, my dream school for the past 2 years.  I completed all my ( Read more... )

Is there something criminally wrong with not knowing?  So wrong that we have to plan our lives at 17 til we're 50?  God I hope not.  My parents want me to be the fucking doctor in Seattle or some shit like that.  There is something wrong with NY and all that jazz.  They wonder why I'm so adverse to UW; it's because it's near home.  They think I ( Read more... )

       My parents have finally relaxed their ridiculous goals, well... with the exception of the stupid schedule.  But ANYWAY, I finally get to go downtown with Sasha.  You'd think my parents would have liked to keep me under lock and key until I'm old and grey if they could.  I sometimes wish that my parents would learn to trust me just a little ( Read more... )

What is love? The need to protect another person out of “love”?  Well if that was the definition of love, then I would definitely find that synonymous with suffocation.  Not every relationship is perfect, but sometimes it’s overwhelmingly intense.

One of my greatest fears is to turn into my parents.  They push and push, wanting me to ( Read more... )