Journaling has been a bit of a double edged sword lately, both on my paper journal and on here. My therapist was promoting me to be more honest and more vulnerable, but perhaps I am not fully ready to be so, because it's a big can of worms, the Luisa can... Unravelling myself has been liberating, exhilarating, everything ing!!! But it's also come ( Read more... )

I apologise in advance for all my typos and unintelligible rubbish I've written below. It is late at night, i am posting from my mobile, and it's just not possible for me to proof read/edit tonight. Please forgive me ( Read more... )

I don't think anybody read my previous entry. If you did, I do apologise because it was a bit much, and nobody needs so much drama in their lives (myself included1); so I have adjusted it to not viewable...

Anyway, I came on here quickly though I should be studying as I have exams in the next couple of days, and I need to do the school run in a few ( Read more... )

( extremely boring bjj rant everyone must skip )

I have a distinct memory of being a child looking out the window of our 4th floor Lima apartment listening to Roxette, the sun going down in the polluted sky. I remember butterflies in my stomach, feeling lots of emotions dreaming of things, like the world was my oyster. I have had many such sessions in my life, when I am overcome with emotion for ( Read more... )

We are going camping in Mahia on Monday. I was a bit apprehensive about sleeping in a tent for two nights, my memories of last time we were there still fresh in my mind: heavily pregnant, no air mattress, and the sound of the mosquitoes trying to get through the net. Rather horrifying, if you ask me! I begged to go in the "cabin" (they have little ( Read more... )

Jorja Smith is an absolute revelation. I have had my head in the sand for ages, not really experiencing new vocalists in what feels like for ever. Her voice is so silky smooth!!! And her songs: all of the feels!!! What is it about England and its beautiful female vocalists? There must be something in the water ( Read more... )

Summer in Gisborne is really beautiful, even for self confessed summer haters such as myself. But geez, it's bloody hot. I keep thinking we should try to make the most of it, going on little adventures each day, but it's hard with little ones. We've at least finally filled the "little pool" (a spa pool, really) up, so we've been using that every ( Read more... )

( training )

Mother rang earlier today to tell me my grandfather passed away yesterday. I now only have three grandparents left ( Read more... )