i feel like i feel at being a person in general. no specific area of life, just being a good person i seem to be seriously lacking in the skills to suceed at life. so i figure if im going to be a fuckup i might as well fuck up as much as possible and do it big. i think im to....

any minute now
i'm waiting for my real life to begin

I scared to face my future ( Read more... )

Spring Break overall was pretty amazing. I had a great time in New York. Got to hang out with people who I normally wouldnt. New York is a cool city, but kind of depressing at the same time. Life has been pretty good, lately, I really cant complain. Im really blessed and I'm realizing that more and more each day. Im trying to focus on the ( Read more... )

Today, has pretty much been one of the longest days of my life. Today was my grandmas funeral, and it wasnt as sad as I anticipated but still pretty heart wrenching. I saw my daddy cry for the first time, ever. Seeing him cry, made me cry. I love my dad and my whole family, they make me laugh and happy, they make me hat oxford.But this weekend ( Read more... )

Im trying now more than ever, to come to terms that I really cant handle everything by myself ( Read more... )

Have you ever had a reoccurring dream,thought, or feeling that something really bad is about to happen. Then when that something actually happens, your not surprised or shocked but you kinda wished that you were so that you could feel something. Im really sad but if you talked to me you would never know ( Read more... )

I think Im going crazy, insane, Im losing my freaking mind.
The more I stay here, the more I hate it.
I dont think that I can do this. I dont think that I want to.

I think that my Grandma is going to die, soon. Life sucks sometimes ( Read more... )

It feels as if life is more bad, and littered here and there with some good moments. At feels as if its this unbelievable pressure to live. Its quite frustrating to feel down and sad for a long time. I know I'm frustrated with God and I feel as if He's abandoned me, but I know its more me turning away from Him. Its just the same old thing all ( Read more... )