It Is, what it is
Today, has pretty much been one of the longest days of my life. Today was my grandmas funeral, and it wasnt as sad as I anticipated but still pretty heart wrenching. I saw my daddy cry for the first time, ever. Seeing him cry, made me cry. I love my dad and my whole family, they make me laugh and happy, they make me hat oxford.But this weekend so far has been a roller coaster of emotions for me personally. It sucks to miss someone so bad that you physically hurt, and sucks to miss someone and regret that you never said I Love You enough or that you never got to say goodbye. Or not really knowing the person to begin with, b/c your parents suck and got a divorce. You know what sucks is that if my grandmothers were alive, I feel like they would be so disappointed in me, and the person that I seem to be becoming. I had this whole entry that I was going to write and it was going to be really good not so sad, but I'm sad. Tonight, I drank my sorrows away for a couple of hours, Im so fucking pitful, Im going to bed, and pray that God gives me another day to try to correct that mistakes that Ive done and say sorry to the people that I have hurt.