I feel good. Things are changing.. ACTUALLY changing, and it is up to me to keep it going, so I'm not going to disappoint myself this time ( Read more... )

It is weird how one horrible, life-changing event can make you turn around and appreciate things you hadn't been-- you go from thinking you have nothing at all, to realizing you may not have much but you sure have a lot more than other people. Just having support, a friend, and a love is enough for me, because they are all real and not being faked ( Read more... )

I feel pretty good at the moment. I am coming to that point in my life where I am re-thinking and doubting everything that is going on,  but it feels like that's what is meant to be happening.. so i'm alright with it. Either it will pass or it won't, and if it doesn't then i'll know what to do ( Read more... )

I don't understand people. How can they go somewhere new and within a few hours or days say they miss Woodbridge? What about Woodbridge is missable? It makes absolutely no sense to me. You miss the traffic, the constant feeling of nothing-to-do-but-drink-and-get-high, the stuck up assholes who think that the size of their truck or house is a direct ( Read more... )

I don't like how every night erecently I have been having to alter my mind in some way-- it comes form either boredom, depression, or... no, boredom ( Read more... )

On Saturday I spent my day driving around the tiny (though time-consuming) state of Delaware searching for the church where my aunt was (finally) about to be married.
The ceremony did not bring me to tears or make me think about my future marriage-- in fact, it made me reaffirm my already self-presumed notion that marriage is not for me and I don't ( Read more... )

It rained today and god it was so relieving. Lately, rain has given me a feeling that it never has before, but i'm thankful-- I now appreciate it when it comes, and when it does, i've learned to walk instead of run.

Last night I cried, and it was really all I had needed all along. All my stress left my body. I've made some choices today and I don't ( Read more... )

People are pretty and nice and intelligent. Crushes happen. I am no longer going to be a jealous person. It is not who I truly am, and I like myself more than that.
I want my insecurities to disappear but they won't if I keep treating myself so harshly.
I am better than that. I am going to change it.

Yeah-- i've said that a million times before, but ( Read more... )

It's July 4th, 2007. Around this time six years ago was when I started my previous livejournal account ( Read more... )