Last night I dreamed (dreampt ( Read more... )

In the beginning of January I started a tantric devotional practice to the Goddess Isis. In most visualizations I make of Isis there is another presence that I haven't been paying much attention to, i'm just aware that she is there. She looks like a vision I had many years ago in a dream of a woman that looks like the High Priestess tarot card only ( Read more... )

i am having a go at tantric practice along with sigil work and i agree with Christopher Hyatt and jason black that sexual fantasizations are sexual frustrations played out unconsciously (or partly consciously). the thing I've learned is to not engage in these fantasies at all if you can help it. i find that when i send the sexual energy into the ( Read more... )

I just finished reading Nothing is True Everything is Permitted The Biography of Brion GysinThe title was derived from a "cut-up" by William Burroughs. "Cut-up" is a technique borrowed from dadaist painters who changed the context of a work of art but use of collage and other random elements to create an unplanned, fresh work outside of normal ( Read more... )

I have started my daily meditation practice after being away from it for many months. I can't believe I have been so foolish to have neglected mediation for so long! I have remembered my dreams for the last two nights. This morning I woke up in meditative awareness (samadhi). I remembered to wake up my energy body or begin to. This is a trick I ( Read more... )

I worship Gods even though I don't believe they exist

I do this to try to evoke the personality of the God within myself.

Today I worship Prometheus - Tommorrow I bring you FIRE

The problem with all post polytheistic - religion, philosophy and science is that it has a singular idea of what a healthy or perfect person is. This severely limits its ability to really help human beings to change. In the ancient world there is nop difference between Magic, Religion and Science. If I am having a problem with sticking up for ( Read more... )

I was the savior of a dying, post apocalyptic world. My job was to go into the basement of a large demolited building. When I got down to the lowest level I saw a very large , obese, naked black woman all decked out as an egyptian goddess. I approached her. she laid on her back and spread her legs open and beckoned me to put my face on her. As i ( Read more... )

Guarding against normal fantasization schemas during the prime-ritual one can escape the drama of gender.if ones fantasies are allowed to roam willy nilly they will invariably stray to traditional sexual roles, ie, the passive role and or the aggressive role. I believe this is primarily biological rather then social (although society perpetuates ( Read more... )

"Even if magic has no power to affect the material world, its still the most powerful vehical to transform the psuche, even more then psychology or organized religion or anything atheism has ever come up with. at worst magic is the most powerful tool for self transformation, at best it means we are god. thats good enough for me.

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