#043 Encounter with a Goddess
In the beginning of January I started a tantric devotional practice to the Goddess Isis. In most visualizations I make of Isis there is another presence that I haven't been paying much attention to, i'm just aware that she is there. She looks like a vision I had many years ago in a dream of a woman that looks like the High Priestess tarot card only much more attractive (goddess forgive me). Back then I really didn't believe in spirits or Gods at all so I paid her no mind. Until yesterday.
Yesterday was contemplation day, so I meditated a total of about seven hours. One hour of meditation followed by an hour of quiet activity, more or less. At some point about mid day, I began reading a book about Isis worship. I was struck by something I read and decided to start my next hours meditation early.
All our education on this planet is directed to suppressing...instinctive human psychism, and to developing the rational faculties...One can easily test this for oneself. Shut one's eyes. Can one see vividly in pictures? It is pretty certain that if one habitually sees in pictures one is not clever at passing examinations! All our education, with a few exceptions, teach very young children to change from seeing in pictures. eidetic imagery, to thinking in words...One is taught to think in abstract terms, as this is "higher" ~ Olivia Robertson, " The Call of Isis
At this point I had already meditated for about four hours, so I was already half way in samadhi and after meditating that long, the rational faculties become slightly out of reach (i can't do math well after meditating) and I become aware of the continual dream-state in a deeper part of my mind. The reading just inspired me to look only at the dream-state even while I was awake. That's when the Goddess called to me.
I started visualizing Isis the other presence became very strong and started talking to me. It was very intense. I asked her if she was Isis and she said, "No, Isis is over there." I "look" over and there she is. "I am Ariadne." She began reaching into my chest very gently massaging my heart and purifying it somehow. [All this was happening in my minds eye.] She started to work on my other chakras by putting her hands through the chakra energy. I could feel waves of energy in those areas and the energy evening out. She worked all the way down to all my chakras and then started working on my spine. She said, "are yo ready for this". I said yes. Then when she got to about mid back all this energy started moving up my spine into my heart chakra and up my spine. The goddess told me she loved me and I just started crying. The feeling of love was so strong it was overwhelming. (The only other time I felt that feeling of love was after my first acid trip). I just stayed in that state for some time. It was like being made love to.
Ariadne said I should look her up online. I told her I was not doing any internet today, she said, " okay but I think you really should." I agreed, this counts as "spiritual" activity. She told me that it would be hard for me not to be distracted but that I should try hard to only look up things on her. I booted up the computer (staying in a half trance state so I wouldn't lose contact with Ariadne). The first picture on google was some hot chick in a bathing suit. (see behind cut)
I immediately click on it and Ariadne said, "No not her". I stayed focused only on official Goddess pictures of Ariadne after that. I was so amazed at what I learned especially from a picture of Aphrodite crowning Ariadne with a crown of stars.
When I got to the last two pages of pictures, Ariadne said, "You can stop now their isn't anything else". But I kept going to the next page of images. Ariadne said, "Don't you trust me?" I said yes and turned off the computer. She suggested that I write about it on my journal. I said would rather not talk about it, do you want me to tell people about you? She said yes. I said I will tomorrow. She said okay.
.:*:.
Yesterday was contemplation day, so I meditated a total of about seven hours. One hour of meditation followed by an hour of quiet activity, more or less. At some point about mid day, I began reading a book about Isis worship. I was struck by something I read and decided to start my next hours meditation early.
All our education on this planet is directed to suppressing...instinctive human psychism, and to developing the rational faculties...One can easily test this for oneself. Shut one's eyes. Can one see vividly in pictures? It is pretty certain that if one habitually sees in pictures one is not clever at passing examinations! All our education, with a few exceptions, teach very young children to change from seeing in pictures. eidetic imagery, to thinking in words...One is taught to think in abstract terms, as this is "higher" ~ Olivia Robertson, " The Call of Isis
At this point I had already meditated for about four hours, so I was already half way in samadhi and after meditating that long, the rational faculties become slightly out of reach (i can't do math well after meditating) and I become aware of the continual dream-state in a deeper part of my mind. The reading just inspired me to look only at the dream-state even while I was awake. That's when the Goddess called to me.
I started visualizing Isis the other presence became very strong and started talking to me. It was very intense. I asked her if she was Isis and she said, "No, Isis is over there." I "look" over and there she is. "I am Ariadne." She began reaching into my chest very gently massaging my heart and purifying it somehow. [All this was happening in my minds eye.] She started to work on my other chakras by putting her hands through the chakra energy. I could feel waves of energy in those areas and the energy evening out. She worked all the way down to all my chakras and then started working on my spine. She said, "are yo ready for this". I said yes. Then when she got to about mid back all this energy started moving up my spine into my heart chakra and up my spine. The goddess told me she loved me and I just started crying. The feeling of love was so strong it was overwhelming. (The only other time I felt that feeling of love was after my first acid trip). I just stayed in that state for some time. It was like being made love to.
Ariadne said I should look her up online. I told her I was not doing any internet today, she said, " okay but I think you really should." I agreed, this counts as "spiritual" activity. She told me that it would be hard for me not to be distracted but that I should try hard to only look up things on her. I booted up the computer (staying in a half trance state so I wouldn't lose contact with Ariadne). The first picture on google was some hot chick in a bathing suit. (see behind cut)
I immediately click on it and Ariadne said, "No not her". I stayed focused only on official Goddess pictures of Ariadne after that. I was so amazed at what I learned especially from a picture of Aphrodite crowning Ariadne with a crown of stars.
When I got to the last two pages of pictures, Ariadne said, "You can stop now their isn't anything else". But I kept going to the next page of images. Ariadne said, "Don't you trust me?" I said yes and turned off the computer. She suggested that I write about it on my journal. I said would rather not talk about it, do you want me to tell people about you? She said yes. I said I will tomorrow. She said okay.
.:*:.