#044 - Idolatry
So I have been trying to be devoted to Isis but I ran into difficulty when I was distracted by Ariadne. I was having difficulty Picturing Isis. I was trying to make her look egyptian in my mind and not letting her appear to me the way she wanted to.
So last night i became lucid in my dreams, I did this by remembering to meditate in the dream. (this is also what Carlos Castaneda recommends). So I started meditating and this glowing statue of Isis appears, but the roman looking white isis. I never want to see her this way because I want her to be classical egyptian looking. I keep trying to change her but I hear her talking to me saying "let me be the way i am". The glowing statue was not Isis but by meditating on the statue I can hear Isis's voice in my right ear (or so it seems in the dream). I was traveling around with Isis, she was pulling me along and showing me things. She is very different from Ariadne, more serious and calmer and more goddessy.
She said some interesting things. She questioned why I was so blasphemous to Jesus. she said "You say 'Thou art god' and that the purpose of meditation is to see that you are God but then you criticize the story of a man who becomes God - how do you justify that." I said "I can't."
[Egyptian biatch called me out!]
Then Isis taught me a song, it was a really cool guitar part but with a drum machine in the background with a definite clap track on it. (I wish I could remember it)
AS I awoke I was still in contact with Isis. It was not as emotionally intense as my encounter with Ariadne but more reverent. Oh yea she told me to keep working on my Zen koans and that She (as opposed to Ariadne) is better for me if I am going to do zen she even asked me to present the koan to her as If I was in Dokusan with my zen teacher.
Isis means business it seems!
So last night i became lucid in my dreams, I did this by remembering to meditate in the dream. (this is also what Carlos Castaneda recommends). So I started meditating and this glowing statue of Isis appears, but the roman looking white isis. I never want to see her this way because I want her to be classical egyptian looking. I keep trying to change her but I hear her talking to me saying "let me be the way i am". The glowing statue was not Isis but by meditating on the statue I can hear Isis's voice in my right ear (or so it seems in the dream). I was traveling around with Isis, she was pulling me along and showing me things. She is very different from Ariadne, more serious and calmer and more goddessy.
She said some interesting things. She questioned why I was so blasphemous to Jesus. she said "You say 'Thou art god' and that the purpose of meditation is to see that you are God but then you criticize the story of a man who becomes God - how do you justify that." I said "I can't."
[Egyptian biatch called me out!]
Then Isis taught me a song, it was a really cool guitar part but with a drum machine in the background with a definite clap track on it. (I wish I could remember it)
AS I awoke I was still in contact with Isis. It was not as emotionally intense as my encounter with Ariadne but more reverent. Oh yea she told me to keep working on my Zen koans and that She (as opposed to Ariadne) is better for me if I am going to do zen she even asked me to present the koan to her as If I was in Dokusan with my zen teacher.
Isis means business it seems!