It is becoming very apparent that what I want to do is nothing but a side note for my parents. Because nothing is ever discussed with me.

Perfect example is right now I am fucked out of $70 because my parents did not discuss a eye doctor’s appointment with me. So here is a second time I am going to have to cancel with this woman. And it pisses me ( Read more... )

Hey everybody. In case any of you haven't realized yet, I am a very depressed person at the moment. I am not going to make any bones about it and I am not going to apologize for it anymore. I am not trying to be emo. I am not trying to broadcast how shitty my life is at the moment. But I am starting to get the feeling that everyone may be starting ( Read more... )

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. Thinking in a good way. No this is no suicide note. This isn't about me wanting to cut. It is about me figuring out who I am, what I want to be, and what I want in my life. I have been having  a lot of issues with who I am as a person. Because as a person I am caught living between two separate  ( Read more... )

Michael Jackson passed away this past Thursday and I am kind of still reeling. At first, I really wanted it to be some sort of hoax. I hope I don't get the same slack Perez Hilton got for saying that. But then again, he's a prick. Never understood why people liked him in the first place. But this is not the time for that.

If it wasn't for the King ( Read more... )

If you guys don't remember the last time I used this icon, the entry wasn't too happy. I try to have an icon for each type of post. This one is for when I feel like the world is crashing down on me.

Many of you don't know this. I was seeing someone my senior year of HS. Well I can't even say senior year. He died in November. He died of AIDS. Sad, ( Read more... )

I’ve come down with a case of gender blues. It is pretty much right on schedule. I have been home the right amount of time and I have been on estrogen about two weeks now. So I am not terribly surprised. Nor do I think this will turn into something so terribly emo that everyone won’t take me seriously.

It’s just I am kind of sick and tired of the ( Read more... )

I got this to say. I think I have learned a very valuable lesson tonight. I fall for people too quickly. Too hard and too easily. I hate the fact that I am like this way. And I HATE THE FACT THAT I LOST OUT BECAUSE I AM BUDDHIST!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! So I have a new opinion about life. It sucks. Its not fair. But you know what? I plan on ( Read more... )

February 14 at 6:55pm ( Read more... )

I am warning you right now this an emo rant. Well part emo rant and part update. Maybe. I'm not sure how this can turn out. I just want to give a heads up because I don't want any backlash. I am also be careful of how I write this because I know this will be post on Facebook as well. I don't want the wrong people to feel inclined to say something. ( Read more... )

Peace onto the Earth
for what the Lord hath giveth
the Lord hath taketh back

......I loved you Spidey....