I feel like I'm being crumpled into a ball; to the point where I can't possibly do any of the things that are laid out for me.
I can barely sit here and look at this essay in Japanese -- I can't do anything without wanting to cry. This is horrible timing for depression. And the whole point of depression is, that's exactly why it comes when it does!

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I was looking back at all my poetry and realized there is a certain theme:
fear

and I don't think this is a very unusual theme, but it is such a crux of the stories - of all the stories that I've written, really, (except for Lorn, because she is the embodiment of the girl who lacks fear when all the world requires it -- she is, in so many ways, and ( Read more... )

I have no sleep and no caffeine and only my wonky brain to keep me awake. It's not helping me study, I can't focus for anything, but I have had plenty of thoughts all the same throughout the day, and they have all been borderline insane:

- "You can't look at his facebook profile! No, no! Stab yourself in the THIGH!" (actually stabs end of fist into ( Read more... )

I have yet to find the word for 'flail' in Japanese, and this is probably good because were I to find it I would run outside screaming it at the top of my lungs in my nightgown.

And, of course, after a brief interlude -- what does it look like I'll be doing this christmas?

Moving out.

So I guess this is the end of the house-share drama. Just wait 'till I take back my washing machine. I'm sure that that will go over well, just like the fact that I breathe.

Kyou yanked. The stem snapped in half. Immediately he felt it: the bird-song stopped, the breeze froze, the garden faded into nothing and Kyou's eyelashes fluttered only once. His pupils dilated and the sharp world around him disappeared. First, the distant leaves of the evergreen. Then the lines of the bark on their trunks. Then the dappled ( Read more... )

A fairly decent, regular update would just be too easy ( Read more... )

Um, Spring break? SPRING BREAK? It's really here ( Read more... )