So last night miss  was wake from 1 to 3 and I lost it. I lost my cool I lost my calm, I lost the filters on my mouth. I said that miss must be trying to kill me. That Tim was right and one kid is hard enough.  What I held be was just as bad . I feel frustrated and stupid for ever thinking I could be a parent let alone a good one. It has snowballed ( Read more... )

This is the biggest problem I have. I am torn between being arrogant and self destructive.

So I stupidly put my opinion about modern fandom on fb. I am trying not to be an assistant but I guess I failed because with in 5 minutes I was told that cannon is dumb and I need to get over my self. In a time where everyone is looking for validation why is it I only find conflict? I look to my friends in the hope that I might find something.
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Just so you know this morning sucks. Little good sleep last night up too early Mair being clingy and volatile when she does not get her way. I asked Tim how did she turn out so codependent with such a stubborn streak. He smiled and said look in the mirror. I fell apart. I am crying and feel utterly useless. I pointed out that what he said cut low ( Read more... )

I know I say this a lot but I am done with you humanity. we are taught as children that we must play nice with other kids even if they are mean to us. WE are taught as teens that we have to fit in a group to be accepted. We are told that we must go to school to get a job. I am sick of the labels. I am sick of paying attention and following the ( Read more... )