Australia Day
Australia Day had the potential to be a failure, but Mark turned it around for me. One good thing about having him know that I'm so down is that now he can recognise it and help me out of it. Apparently we had all these plans, and we were supposedly going on a picnic lunch with my family, and then going to the pub's beach party with Azaria and a few others, but neither happened.
Lunch was an odd affair, with Mum and John not really being happy with each other, and Mum on a short fuse, and Louise not showing up or answering her phone until we were just about to sit down. So of course then she got the shits because she wasn't invited, and we didn't let her know earlier, even though we'd been trying to ring her for the last hour. In my family it always seems like all people ever do is just teeter on the edge waiting for someone to fall over. Mum is always stressed. John is always grumpy. Mark is always uncomfortable. Louise has gone a bit psycho lately. And Jayden is just a ten year old kid with parents that fight. Then I get frustrated because I'm just like "hey can't we just have one meal together? can't Louise just be a part of this family for one hour? can't Mark just sit here and be happy for a little while?" Like I really don't know why I bother some times.
Lunch itself wasn't so bad though, the food was alright, though expensive because it was a public holiday. I wish we had of gone for a picnic, even though it was too hot. I wanted to. I love going for picnics, because my family never does. I'm sick of everything being so hard to organise. I'm sick of everyone being so difficult.
At home after lunch Mark just sat on WoW, which was pissing me off. I didn't really feel like being on my computer, or being alone, and Ally couldn't get my text message because there's zero reception at her place, and Charlotte was busy but coming in later, and Azaria was drinking at someone else's place and wasn't going out until late and Mark just kind of ignored me and kept playing WoW. And then he made a joke about having a beer, which would mean that he wouldn't have been able to take me to Ally's to visit and just crash in her pool, so I got really mad. He told me he'd take me, and that he was just joking, but I was like "no, you've crossed the threshold now, nothing I do is going to be fun, I'm just over it all" which is what happens to me a lot when things don't go my way. It's not really selfish, because it's not as if I ask for too much. It used to happen a lot when I went out and no one was there or Mark wouldn't dance with me and I'd just get upset and then bored and then the night was lost.
Mark eventually convinced me to get out of bed and put my swimmers on and get ready to go. At that moment though Louise showed up with a milk crate of my stuff that I was purposely leaving in the bedroom because I was going to sell it when they got off their asses and cleaned out the house and organised a garage sale. But Louise has gone a bit weird now so she brought it over, which nearly killed my mood, but Mark was determined to get me out of the house. I cheered up the minute Ally opened the door and explained to us how they'd been sneaking around the house hiding because they thought that we were relatives and they'd just had enough.
It was good to hang out there. Charlotte came around, and we went swimming, though Charlotte didn't because she didn't have swimmers. We spoilt the Twilight story for Charlotte, but at the rate she's going with reading the fourth movie will be out before she finishes the first book! She didn't mind though, she wanted to know. It was good. We were in the pool for ages, but didn't get sunburnt. I had sunscreen on, but only from my shirt not for my swimmers, but Ally's pool is half shaded at that time of the afternoon. I've done enough being sunburnt I think. We stayed for dinner, and Ally's mum cooked for us, which was awesome. During dinner Ally's mum was watching Boston Legal on Austar, and Mark now loves it, so that'll be another show that we'll be downloading, along with one that Ally mentioned about vampires, and Nip/Tuck because Mark saw lesbians in the ad and was quite excited. Mark was drinking beer, and the plan was we were supposedly going to the beach party, except for Ally who had work today, but then as usual Mark got tired. So instead we took Ally's season four of Grey's Anatomy and came back home and watched a few episodes. It was awesome to hang out with both Ally and Charlotte again. Ally finishes her work experience for uni on Wednesday, so we're going to do something on Thursday night and hang out on Friday. She goes in two weeks, so the weekend before she leaves we'll hopefully be going out and celebrating.
Things are back to normal in town. No more blocked off streets or any of that. The festival is over for another year. I didn't get any photos of the actual festival, except for the cavalcade. No one ever wanted to come over with me, and I didn't want to go by myself, but I think I'm going to have to get the guts up to walk around places with my camera and just take photos.
Today I'd planned to go over home and clean some of my stuff out because that's obviously what Louise wants, but she told me on Facebook that I couldn't because she wasn't ready for me to do it. That room is a mess, and she goes to the trouble of cleaning out my stuff so she can dump it on me, when she should be picking up her own shit so that she can see her own floor. She told me to go over there tomorrow, but I'm not sure if I want to. I'm motivated today, and who knows what I might want to do tomorrow. I said I'd just chuck all her shit on her bed like she always did to me, but she seems to be all high and mighty and in charge now which is a load of shit because she's just coming off really stupid and irritating. I think I'll still go around there and just do what I can. Louise said they're going out, which is good for me because I'd prefer to work there alone anyway.
I need a new book to read. I'm going to restart Breaking Dawn and then I'll have to buy another book after I finish the Twilight series again. I need to buy text books though, so maybe I'll just borrow some off someone, I just have to find someone with books I want to read. Maybe I'll do Harry Potter again. I've only read the seventh one once, which is weird considering how many times I've read the others.
I need so much more money. Yea, things are feeling pretty hopeless today by the sounds of things, but I'm trying to be positive. I'm just going to concentrate on doing what I want today.