a little catch up of the last few days
So the last few days have been pretty alright. After doing a quiz blog earlier, and a quiz blog yesterday, and then talking about other people from work and Sarah Palin in America and the glassing incident from the paper, I realised that I've been putting off an entry about myself because simply, I have nothing to say. Everyone knows that sad things are more interesting to read, and things have been going pretty smoothly for me so I have nothing to say about it. It might also have to do with the fact that I've worked nine hours the last two days and work calms me. I actually had a good day at work today, with some minor irritations like a late break and crazy busy customers.
I was reminded today just how much I shake randomly. Most of the time I shake because I'm hungry or tired, which makes me weak. Shaking is something I do quite often, and it doesn't really bother me that much unless I shake really bad, which hasn't happened in a while, but it happened today. Some lady asked to see my hand because she complimented my nail polish (it's yellow, by the way). I held my hand out so that she could see my polish and my hand was shaking pretty bad. I'm not sure if she noticed but I sure did and I was like, pulling my hands back really quickly. I notice I shake a lot on a check out, and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's the combination of trying to work really fast and being hungry. I didn't get my morning tea break until 11am, and I was supposed to get it at 10am. I get hungry quickly, but because of the way I am with my mood I pretty much need to eat before I pass into the I'm-so-hungry-I-don't-feel-it stage because then I won't eat, and I know that if I go for long enough without food I could just not eat. There are days when I eat next to nothing just because. And it's not about weight either. I don't know why, but sometimes I just don't like to eat. Maybe it's a control thing. I don't really like the feeling of being shaky, but I don't mind being light headed. Maybe I want to see how long I can go without eating before I pass out. I've been pretty close at work before.
The night before last I started writing something pretty big. I'm about half way through, but I'm not going to post it on here because it's so big. I don't think I'm going to post it anywhere, which kind of defeats the purpose seeing as I am writing it so it can be read. Maybe I'll do it in installments.
I submitted my sociology assessment last night. It was due today. It was so simple. I felt so stupid after finishing it because I was like "why the hell did I put this off?". I could have easily sat down and done the whole thing in an hour. That's how I am though, always putting things off and never just doing something. They don't even really care how good it is, you basically just have to show that you will put in the effort to get something done. I also think it's just a pass or a fail mark, and you fail the unit if you don't do it because it's a part of the unit and you have to do it. That's the majority of the work for this unit done. Four homeworks. I've got two more to do, which are due in as an assessment in early October, and then a do-at-home exam paper, which I've got like three weeks to do. I wish I'd had this unit last semester when I had all that work to do! It would have made the work load a little bit lighter!
Today Mark went to Musswelbrook for an interview with Big W. He, Daniel and another guy are applying for a department manager traineeship. Daniel definately should not get it. He has a poor work ethic, is lazy and is rude. Not the sort of person you want to put in charge at all. I don't even know why he went for it. The other guy will most probably get it, Mark even says so. He's only a night filler, but Big W is like his life, well not really. But he's one of those types that is always available and always comes in when called. He's also a good worker and is very productive. Mark has a good work ethic and does his job well, but I think this other guy will most likely get it. It's not that Mark isn't good for the job, it's just from what I hear the other guy is better. I'd like Mark to get it, and he really wants it. It's a whole lot of responsibility, and with a decent pay rate. It's an actual 'you-get-this-much-a-year' instead of getting so much an hour depending on how many hours you're rostered on each week. It's for a night department manager, and most likely for a department that Mark isn't in now. It would be so bad, and he'd really like to get it. I'm just not happy with the fact that it's a night DM, because then he will be working late nights and I will be working early mornings. He'd like it though, being able to sleep in and all. He finds out tomorrow, so we're all a bit nervous about it.
I'm started talking to Kayla again lately. I kind of lost contact with her after her internet was disconnected like a year ago. We were never really that close anyway. She's got a baby girl now. I'm not sure if I mentioned that when she was actually pregnant. She's now moved out into a house like across the road from her parents. She's only 18 with a baby. She fell pregnant (I don't know why they weren't using condoms) but then her and her boyfriend at the time got into some really bad places just arguing all the time so they eventually broke up for good and she decided to keep the baby. I haven't seen her in ages but one day I saw her while I was working and she said she'd had her baby. Now she's back on the internet a lot more because I guess she's paying for it herself now. She told me she met a new man while she was out one night. I upped her for going out and said that she has responsibilities now but she said she's only been out once. I hate it when young people have kids and then just palm them off so that they can still do all the things that young people do. When you're a mother you're a mother. You're kind of supposed to give up going to the pub and getting drunk.
And it turns out that her new man is a kid I went to primary school with and we totally crushed on each other in year six! That's so weird! I haven't seen him in years and years (probably actually since I was twelve years old) but I recognised his name on his Bebo page. I'm freakishly freaking with names and faces (I could probably say I'd recognise near everyone I've ever met and spent a decent amount of time with). He probably wouldn't recognise me, it's been too long. We're both really different now. I spotted him one night ages ago at the club on the pokies (and he won like $400!) and he's really grown up and filled out now. He used to be the tall lanky nerdy kid in primary school, but now he's big and built and not too bad looking. It's funny that Kayla met him at the pub. She was in the year below me at school (in a different school to me, I didn't know her from school I actually met her on Bebo and found out she lived up the road). I guess it just reinforces my belief that the place I live in is really a small town because everyone really does know everyone. I'm sure there's a few people out there I haven't met, but to me it just feels like it's always all the same people.
I had like around nine or ten hours sleep last night and I'm still tired. I was so exhausted so I hit the sack at around 8:30pm because I found it hard to sleep the night before and got up to work early. I also had a really big dinner (we went to Chinese). After so much sleep it was easier for me to get out of bed and I wasn't so tired this morning, but after around 10am I was shattered all day. I really got to do something about how tired I am, but even though I hate being tired I'm not motivated enough to do something about my eating or exercising habits that could fix that. I actually think it's almost bedtime now.
It was Mum's birthday today. She's 40 now. We didn't do anything big. I asked her if she wanted a party and she pretty much said no. She went on about how she doesn't have friends and how her friends from highschool are not really her friends anymore and about how most of the family that she knwos (not that I know) don't live in this town and how it would be a hassle because it was Jayden's birthday last week. I haven't bought her anything. I don't know what she wants. Every year she has said that she wants a clean house, and it's something I intend on helping her achieve, but it's not something I can get her to replace a gift. That and I haven't been shopping. I asked her what she wanted and she said she didn't know. I know one thing that she wants, but I can't afford that right now. I was thinking of laybying for Christmas (it's a little freezer) but we can never find "the right one". She's so damn picky.