everyone is talking about...
I'm not sure if I'm actually awake enough to write an entry, but I think it's too early to go to sleep yet. I have had a few thoughts doing the rounds today that I want to get out anyway. Work was alright today, but after I got home I was on a short fuse with Mark all evening. I'm not sure why. I felt way out of place sitting at his parent's dinner table for dinner again, and then he felt way out of place sitting in Mum's house. We're even. I hate going there and he hates going to mine, but I hate going to his more. I have reason.
Everyone is talking about gay people at the moment. Recently Ellen DeGeneres (spelling?) and Portia De Rossi got married, which I think it absolutely great. It's on all the magazine covers, so everyone is talking about it. I've had customers say they've had enough of hearing about it, while buying a magazine that has them on the cover. I've somehow managed to but myself into a few gay conversations, which isn't such a bad thing. It's weird, because no one I know from work pays attention to the fact that my Facebook says I'm gay. I only list women, because apart from Mark, I'm not interested in men at the moment. Predominantly gay. That's how I put it anyway. But, no one knows that. Maybe they'd talk to me differently about this if they did. I've heard a few comments about how they shouldn't be married because they're gay, and I'm waiting for someone to tell me that what they did was wrong. Hopefully not a customer, because then I can't assert my opinion. At work today we were talking about it and Andie mentioned a guy who we used to work with and that he was secretly gay (not very many people knew at all). I guess that takes my gay friend tally up to two, and they're only really just acquaintances.
I think it's lovely. I think gay marriage should be a fundamental right. Who can deny two people in love the chance to be seen as a married couple. I'm not for religion, and I know that religion isn't for homosexuality, so I can understand the church not liking gay marriage, but they don't have to. Mum says that gay people should be given something equivalent to marriage. I think that they should have equal rights to the marriage licence and the bit of paper that says that you are lawfully married. These people are in love, and it's not any different to how a man loves a women. I was really happy to hear that Ellen and Portia got married, and not just because I identify as predominantly lesbian. I'm really happy for them. I'm really happy for anyone who can get married and make it work.
On the mixed topic of homosexuality and marriage, everyone is also talking about getting married and/or having kids. So many people have done it lately. Mum had Bub. Michelle got married because she was pregnant and then had a baby. Actually they were getting married anyway, they just "accidentally" got pregnant first (does anyone ever believe that line anymore? it's less believable coming out of the mouths of religious people I think). Kayla had a baby girl about two months ago. I know a few people from work who have just had babies. One girl at work is pregnant (and I have a suspicion that another might be). One girl at work is getting married. Andie's boyfriend's sister (who also happens to be a work friend's daughter) got married on the weekend and I spent all day today hearing about what sounded like a really beautiful wedding. Andie and I were talking about it all today and Andie dropped a bombshell. She wants a baby. I was like "holy fuck are you serious?". Her and her boyfriend are going to try in January, but it's all hush hush cause she doesn't want Katie to hear about it. She doesn't want to get married yet though. I can't imagine her with kids. She's a year younger than I am, but in a way she's older. She dropped out of school and has been working on the front end for like four or five years. It's not as if she's going to uni or travelling the world or moving up in some awesome career. It's much the same as Michelle, who is only 21. She's not doing anything terribly exciting with her life. Some people are just born to be mothers I think, but I still can't imagine Andie having a baby. I just couldn't believe it.
With everyone getting married and having kids there's like this insane pressure for me to be next. Mark and I have been together for four years now, and we've just moved out. But no, marriage and kids is not in any sort of distant future. I'm not like Andie and Michelle and Kayla. I have plans. I'm at uni. I want to travel the world. When I talk about it I say "I don't think I'll have kids for like another seven years maybe" because that gives me time to finish uni, and because I'm studying part time, it's going to take twice as long. I've had enough of babies for a while between Bub and Michelle's baby. I don't want to get married. I'm not sure if I ever want to get married. I mean, I've love to have a wedding, but does marriage fit the type of lifestyle that I want? Can I be polyamorous and married at the same time? I know I could be, but would that work for me. I'm also not trying to be negative when I think that Mark and I might not be together forever. I'm just trying to be realistic. We go through phases, and today we bit at each other a lot over nothing. No one knows where the future leads, and in a year Mark and I might not be together, but maybe we'll want to get married. Who knows what will happen.
On the question of me accidentally falling pregnant, I have no idea if I would keep it. I've always been pro choice, thinking that each person is entitled to whatever choice they make, regardless of how they justify that choice. If I fell pregnant while in school I probably would abort it. I couldn't give a baby up for adoption, I've had to get rid of it. I know that sounds so horrible. I think abortion is justified when it is justified. There is no reason why a person who is raped should be forced to carry a child of rape. Teens should abort or give up for adoption when they are not mature enough to be a mother, which I think happens more often than it should. If I was to get pregnant now I have no idea what I would do. I don't want kids at this moment, but it would depend on a lot of things. Right now, I would probably get rid of it. In a year or two, who knows? And no, I'm not going to accidentally get pregnant on purpose. I want to have a life set up before I have kids.
I'm struggling to keep my eyes open now, even though it's just barely 10pm. Looks like I'll be going to bed. My day was rather boring anyway.
Everyone is talking about gay people at the moment. Recently Ellen DeGeneres (spelling?) and Portia De Rossi got married, which I think it absolutely great. It's on all the magazine covers, so everyone is talking about it. I've had customers say they've had enough of hearing about it, while buying a magazine that has them on the cover. I've somehow managed to but myself into a few gay conversations, which isn't such a bad thing. It's weird, because no one I know from work pays attention to the fact that my Facebook says I'm gay. I only list women, because apart from Mark, I'm not interested in men at the moment. Predominantly gay. That's how I put it anyway. But, no one knows that. Maybe they'd talk to me differently about this if they did. I've heard a few comments about how they shouldn't be married because they're gay, and I'm waiting for someone to tell me that what they did was wrong. Hopefully not a customer, because then I can't assert my opinion. At work today we were talking about it and Andie mentioned a guy who we used to work with and that he was secretly gay (not very many people knew at all). I guess that takes my gay friend tally up to two, and they're only really just acquaintances.
I think it's lovely. I think gay marriage should be a fundamental right. Who can deny two people in love the chance to be seen as a married couple. I'm not for religion, and I know that religion isn't for homosexuality, so I can understand the church not liking gay marriage, but they don't have to. Mum says that gay people should be given something equivalent to marriage. I think that they should have equal rights to the marriage licence and the bit of paper that says that you are lawfully married. These people are in love, and it's not any different to how a man loves a women. I was really happy to hear that Ellen and Portia got married, and not just because I identify as predominantly lesbian. I'm really happy for them. I'm really happy for anyone who can get married and make it work.
On the mixed topic of homosexuality and marriage, everyone is also talking about getting married and/or having kids. So many people have done it lately. Mum had Bub. Michelle got married because she was pregnant and then had a baby. Actually they were getting married anyway, they just "accidentally" got pregnant first (does anyone ever believe that line anymore? it's less believable coming out of the mouths of religious people I think). Kayla had a baby girl about two months ago. I know a few people from work who have just had babies. One girl at work is pregnant (and I have a suspicion that another might be). One girl at work is getting married. Andie's boyfriend's sister (who also happens to be a work friend's daughter) got married on the weekend and I spent all day today hearing about what sounded like a really beautiful wedding. Andie and I were talking about it all today and Andie dropped a bombshell. She wants a baby. I was like "holy fuck are you serious?". Her and her boyfriend are going to try in January, but it's all hush hush cause she doesn't want Katie to hear about it. She doesn't want to get married yet though. I can't imagine her with kids. She's a year younger than I am, but in a way she's older. She dropped out of school and has been working on the front end for like four or five years. It's not as if she's going to uni or travelling the world or moving up in some awesome career. It's much the same as Michelle, who is only 21. She's not doing anything terribly exciting with her life. Some people are just born to be mothers I think, but I still can't imagine Andie having a baby. I just couldn't believe it.
With everyone getting married and having kids there's like this insane pressure for me to be next. Mark and I have been together for four years now, and we've just moved out. But no, marriage and kids is not in any sort of distant future. I'm not like Andie and Michelle and Kayla. I have plans. I'm at uni. I want to travel the world. When I talk about it I say "I don't think I'll have kids for like another seven years maybe" because that gives me time to finish uni, and because I'm studying part time, it's going to take twice as long. I've had enough of babies for a while between Bub and Michelle's baby. I don't want to get married. I'm not sure if I ever want to get married. I mean, I've love to have a wedding, but does marriage fit the type of lifestyle that I want? Can I be polyamorous and married at the same time? I know I could be, but would that work for me. I'm also not trying to be negative when I think that Mark and I might not be together forever. I'm just trying to be realistic. We go through phases, and today we bit at each other a lot over nothing. No one knows where the future leads, and in a year Mark and I might not be together, but maybe we'll want to get married. Who knows what will happen.
On the question of me accidentally falling pregnant, I have no idea if I would keep it. I've always been pro choice, thinking that each person is entitled to whatever choice they make, regardless of how they justify that choice. If I fell pregnant while in school I probably would abort it. I couldn't give a baby up for adoption, I've had to get rid of it. I know that sounds so horrible. I think abortion is justified when it is justified. There is no reason why a person who is raped should be forced to carry a child of rape. Teens should abort or give up for adoption when they are not mature enough to be a mother, which I think happens more often than it should. If I was to get pregnant now I have no idea what I would do. I don't want kids at this moment, but it would depend on a lot of things. Right now, I would probably get rid of it. In a year or two, who knows? And no, I'm not going to accidentally get pregnant on purpose. I want to have a life set up before I have kids.
I'm struggling to keep my eyes open now, even though it's just barely 10pm. Looks like I'll be going to bed. My day was rather boring anyway.