why the fuck do i keep putting up with the broken promises and him acting like i basically don't exist when i'm not around? i fucking hate that. and his fucking phone excuse is getting old too. fucking call me like you promised when i don't hear from you for multiple days and maybe i'd not go into bitch mode.

so it's been a month since my last post ( Read more... )

i'm starting to think i should start talking to someone professional. i don't know.... the one person i thought i could turn to i apparently used as a crutch too much. and i don't know what to do ( Read more... )

there is a reason i'm still friends with a few people from high school. i <3 brandon to death. he brought me out of my pool of misery. always there for me when i need him. as i am to him, why we're still friends ( Read more... )

i can't even get anyone to go to a movie with me... i might as well not fucking try. just sit here the rest of the night feeling miserable and trying to be happy on my own, even though i really have no human contact.

i don't know if i'm going to be able to do this. i feel so fucking lonely and i have noone to talk to. all my friends and family are back in atlanta and no matter how hard i've tried, i have no friends down here. i just wish i could have anyone to talk to in person about anything. i can't even stop fucking crying. i c an't even talk to my boyfriend ( Read more... )

i don't know what to think right now. i feel really lost. i just feel so used. i don't know. i hate long distance. i never wanted to do it. i only tried it because i really like charles. but i don't know what to do... i really don't. **sigh** i just hope everything works itself out and i can stop feeling like some piece of shit that doesn't matter ( Read more... )

i feel so alone right now.

i don't think i've ever felt so alone and empty in my life.

i still feel naseous ( Read more... )

today was bad. very bad ( Read more... )