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i still feel naseous...
we agreed we are going to try to scale things back a little. not talk every single night on the phone etc. which is what i had agreed to in the first place. but yeah... not talk as often, and we are both taking the next few days to cool off.
i just feel really weird inside. i'm slightly offended that after we settled everything he said we should schedule for a date earlier this week (baaaasically phone sex). i told him that probably wouldn't happen, i feel too weird. maybe later in the week. but tomorrow he is going to call and we are going to talk very quickly... start the new week off with a clean slate.
we decided we want to work things out, but both of us are going to have to compromise on what we think a relationship is. because we both have entirely different ideas. and i also told him i wasn't sure i had actually fallen for him, i just liked the idea that i had more than anything. i know i was upset last night when i was basically described as a best friend with benefits... but it kinda is like that for me too. the way he described things. and i'm pretty sure i'm ok with that. someone that is able to make me happy and that i feel a connection like this with... i'm not just gonna give up on them.
he is waiting for a few days to buy his plane ticket though. i guess to see how things go with us. i'm pretty sure he is still going to buy it to come see me. i know we are going to be ok. just starting with a cleaned off slate... a little weird almost 6 months in, but doable. i'm just glad we were able to clearly talk things out. that's a good feeling.
we agreed we are going to try to scale things back a little. not talk every single night on the phone etc. which is what i had agreed to in the first place. but yeah... not talk as often, and we are both taking the next few days to cool off.
i just feel really weird inside. i'm slightly offended that after we settled everything he said we should schedule for a date earlier this week (baaaasically phone sex). i told him that probably wouldn't happen, i feel too weird. maybe later in the week. but tomorrow he is going to call and we are going to talk very quickly... start the new week off with a clean slate.
we decided we want to work things out, but both of us are going to have to compromise on what we think a relationship is. because we both have entirely different ideas. and i also told him i wasn't sure i had actually fallen for him, i just liked the idea that i had more than anything. i know i was upset last night when i was basically described as a best friend with benefits... but it kinda is like that for me too. the way he described things. and i'm pretty sure i'm ok with that. someone that is able to make me happy and that i feel a connection like this with... i'm not just gonna give up on them.
he is waiting for a few days to buy his plane ticket though. i guess to see how things go with us. i'm pretty sure he is still going to buy it to come see me. i know we are going to be ok. just starting with a cleaned off slate... a little weird almost 6 months in, but doable. i'm just glad we were able to clearly talk things out. that's a good feeling.