Everything is ok and I know I’ve let go of my final piece of self-will. I’m finally, finally letting God do his job, knowing I don’t need to stick my hand into things because rather God is in the driver’s seat. Always was and I just didn’t believe it. If God says something is going to happen then it’s going to happen. It’s not up to me to ( Read more... )

I am ticked off. I'm going out of town this weekend -- up to Grass Valley to practice kung fu with Shaolin monks (woot!) and I'm annoyed about transportation.

The following is a conversation I had with D on Wednesday:

Me: "So, are you going to pick me up from work or from home? I'd prefer home so I don't have to lug all my stuff with me (meaning a ( Read more... )

This morning I woke up feeling grumpy because I didn't get in last night until after midnight and I'm coming off of a retreat high. As in being surrounded by good friends for a week straight where we all ate at the same time, meditated at the same time, slept at the same time, etc. And so coming back to my real life I feel like weeping because I  ( Read more... )

Today as I took the bus home this man stood in the aisle even though there were seats available. And by standing in the aisle he blocked the pathway for people to enter and exit. So mentally I told him, "Dude, take a seat. There are plenty available and you're blocking the way." No dice. He kept standing. When he kept standing it occurred to me I ( Read more... )

Oh man. So this weekend. The lovely
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So I think some of you (all of you?) know I'm organizing a nonviolent communication workshop. It's my firm belief in order for us to create a more peaceful planet the change starts with us and how we interact with one another. Anyway, my hope for this is to start uniting people in the area so we can work together to create change. This week I've ( Read more... )

So tomorrow I leave for Ohio for my cousin's wedding. I'm looking forward to it. Not so much because of the wedding, although it will be nice to see my family both immediate and extended, but because tomorrow all I have to do is travel. Tomorrow all I have to do is sit on an airplane and be and write and read. Tomorrow I get to spend time with ( Read more... )

I've been circling around this a long time but last night it finally sank in.

A few weeks ago I wrote a blog post about facing fear and how once I face my fear it doesn't seem like this overwhelming, enormous "thing" anymore. From there I moved to a place where I realized even if my biggest fear came true, I would get over it.

Last night I hung out ( Read more... )

Today I am in this place where I feel like I can handle anything. I wrote a blog post about this but I wanted to write about it here too. I don't feel fearless exactly but I'm no longer walking around saying, "Please God don't let me lose my job/become paralyzed/lose a family member, etc." I'm not walking around begging for certain things not to ( Read more... )

There is a concept in yoga philosophy called santosha, which means contentment. I struggle with santosha a lot because how can you be content with life, what you have, what you’re doing, etc. and still work to improve things? I mean, I am all for being grateful for what you have, but I also don’t get contentment. It sounds silly saying that but it’ ( Read more... )