It wouldn't hurt so much if I didn't have Charlotte.  Partly because I'm worried that she won't remember mom.  But mostly because we're starting to do things together like I remember doing with mom.  And now I won't be able to share that with her.  We haven't read "Heidi" yet.  She's only just learning to ride a bicycle.  There's all the books that ( Read more... )

Charlotte asked me tonight "Why are you so sad?"  Not wanting to come right out and say "Because Grandma is probably dying," I said "Because I wish I could have my mommy forever."

She touched my face, said "No one can have their mommy forever," and gave me a hug.

I'll catch up on other stuff soon.  But in the meantime, it's Halloween.  I actually just got a hoarde of little boys in costume at the door - scooped up their candy, said "thank you," and bolted down the driveway.  It actually reminded me of trick-or-treating in my childhood neighborhood ( Read more... )

Tonight was a school party at the Elton Tavern in town.  That would be a historic site, not an actual tavern.  It was for the kids who participated in the historic society's "town passport" project.  A few weeks ago, they gave the kids "passports" to various historic sites in the town that they should visit, either take a picture of or draw a ( Read more... )

This evening, I was trying to get Charlotte to pack up what she wants to take with her tomorrow to the War of the Roses event up in Concordia.  Most of the conversation was along the lines of "that's all you brought last time, and you whined that you were bored."  The part that brought me to a stop was this ( Read more... )

On Saturday I rummaged through the bottom of my jewelry box, and pulled out my old watch - by which I mean my first watch.  I don't remember how old I was when I got that watch, but I had it in Herkimer.  I can't tell you how many times I forgot and wore it into the swimming pool.  Sometimes it would be okay, sometimes it would go to the jewelers, ( Read more... )

Charlotte "helped" me make banana bread last night.  Everything she helps with takes twice as long, but I guess that's what I signed up for when I made myself responsible for an unformed human being, isn't it?  Teaching her to help.

She had great fun mashing the bananas - and did a great job.
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This afternoon she finished putting the chemise together.  I did the pinning, but she did all the sewing - including setting the sleeves ( Read more... )

For her birthday, Charlotte got a sewing machine from Grandma.  It was actually my idea, but I have a history of giving my best gift ideas to my mom.  Someday *I'll* get to give her the cool gift, but not any time soon.  She's been desultorily sewing together some scrap quilting strips to make a quilt for her doll, but she's been having trouble ( Read more... )

Yesterday was Birka.  It's not as much fun when you're unemployed, given that it's a shopping "event," but its nice to go see people.  the downside is that I dehydrate so badly in that hall that I'm always wiped out for twenty-four hours afterwards.

I didn't spend too much.  Another bowl and another pitcher from thatpotteryguy, because, well, that's why I go.  ( Read more... )