I can't wait to see you either..Ican't wait to chill, blaze, drink, and have fun....but, there are somany things we need to catch up on, understand of eachother...we all hurt I think...a lot, and it's not right to escape as we do...because I do it too...it's affecting me in bizarre ways...I can't wait to talk to you guys...to blah blah blah blah ( Read more... )

Yeah, so life has been taking all kinds of twists and turns ( Read more... )

maybe. maybe I'm as screwed in the head as I often feel, maybe it's just that I'm clouded my all my emotions..that I haven't been able to just do what I want for so so long. Jesus. Should I just let her go? What would that mean? The unknown...is that what I'm so afriad of? Not knowing? I'm afriad of confronting the uncertain, even though ( Read more... )

time is the unlocked door to everything.

only time will tell they say.

i say ... patience i guess.

Yeah right. Not yet anyway. I'm faking it you know...faking the "free" part that is. It's hard handling this situation...not "evident". It's just that things get all stirred up inside, I melt, and I can't do anything about it...it's just the way it is. God help me, things could get really really really messy. Must be very very careful. Free ( Read more... )

things are beginning to come into place in my head, but nothing is sure or concrete yet...all Iknow is, I have to get things in my head centered...and clear so that I can talk honestly and openly with Julie. I have to go to work and write an email--perhaps she can help me straighten things out in my head a bit....

hey Sandra ( Read more... )

I know things will be alright, but I have a hard time anyway ( Read more... )

i ask myself if it's all even worth it
i ask myself why try
i ask myself if it even matters
i ask myself if it's going to last anyway
i ask myself if i'm happy
i don't know anymore
i don't know anything anymore
i'm tired
i'm worn out
i'm sick of living this life
i'm sick of not knowing
that's all i know.

Another rainy day, and nothing to *really* do. Yeah, I have shit to do, but hey. So updating the last entry...I ended up calling Kitty to tell her I was staying in that night, and well, she told me to get my ass over there becvause everyone was getting ready for the angel/demon night. So I got my shit together, went over, changed into Kate's ( Read more... )