My therapist (Melissa) has been on vacation for the past two weeks, and normally I would just take a brief break from therapy while she's gone, but things have been so unstable for me lately that I decided to take her up on her offer to arrange for a colleague to see me once a week while she's gone ( Read more... )

This is birthday week Chez Appelcline, and so our house is made of cake. Today is Shannon's birthday & mine is Saturday, so:

1. Today we went out & picnicked on the campus, swung by the Pacific Cookie Co. on the way home, plan to bike to Whole Foods to buy ourselves each a small birthday cake (since I will want something non-chocolate-lemon, probably- ( Read more... )

Okay. I'm never going to make this a well-thought-out entry in my current state, so I'm just going to jot down my jumbled thoughts so that I can get this darn issue out of my brain, at least a little bit. This is going to be full of inconsistent capitalization, especially, and probably some who/whom misuse, because I can't seem to make myself care ( Read more... )

Crying at the Y ... and Speaking Up Again
I went to the gym today to meet with a "fitness coach" to get oriented to the Y-set up my cardio workouts on the various machines, all that sort of stuff-but ended up in tears. I was totally crying, right there in the exercise room, though I didn't feel self-conscious about it at all. I felt aware that this ( Read more... )

Since I took so many books of the bookcase in my office while organizing my art supplies and making them more accessible, we had a sudden bookshelf shortage, so yesterday Shannon and I spent what felt like hours, going through every single book on every single shelf of 13 large bookcases … holy mackerel! But we needed to make some room by getting ( Read more... )

Well, at least my recent questions are answered: I am definitely bipolar. Lately I'd been wondering (and so had Shannon) whether I might be hypomanic, because it seemed like some of the symptoms might be present, but we weren't sure. I worried that I was prejudiced against identifying it, since I've been questioning the Bipolar II diagnosis for the ( Read more... )

Tired and nauseated today, but not as tired or as nauseated as yesterday. Ya gotta appreciate the small favors ( Read more... )

I wrote something in writing group today that I really liked, not as writing, but as a reflection of how I see myself these days. We were writing quickly, steadily, under a 15-minute time constraint, and so what came out was not very well thought out and almost entirely uncensored.

The prompt was: "You walk through a door ..." and this is what I ( Read more... )