It's 1:24 am and I am so awake. I did fall asleep early but woke up around 12 am to the sound of loud pittering rain. I jumped up, put on some DM and threw my jeans in the washer. I then got distracted by the lure of the internet and trying to remember which album some DM song was on. Then I found out which album and realized I can't find my ( Read more... )

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Wow, head like a hole turns me on. I realize I really LOVE NIN again. I mean I have for the past god, 7 years (it’s been THAT long!?). I still love Trent. I just don’t have NIN posters up any more. I should laminate my HUGE Trent poster and put it up despite the fact that mike doesn’t like it. But he DOES like NIN now. He’s not longer *as* ( Read more... )

Wow I have no eye brows. I feel like a scary drag queen. That’s a mixed feeling. I mean, I love drag queens and I think they look great but mmm I don’t know how good I look. I look kind of scary and mike doesn’t want to look at me. I feel guilty as if I did something to him….but he stifles my individuality. He thinks my wackiness is wearing ( Read more... )

Hi, I’m trying to listen to *happy* Mary Lou Lord music though I have this nagging need to smash things and scream very very mother fucking loudly.

Mmm ever stop and think that maybe you’re not every thing you always hoped that you would be? I am thinking this now. I’m not entirely sure that I can be everything I want to be. I realize that I ( Read more... )

*sigh* I feel so out of wack all of a sudden. Someone I don’t know just gave me relationship advice and it made me think “why am I here? What do I expect to get out of my life?” and I honestly must say that I have no idea. All of a sudden I feel all wishy washy and depressed. I feel like crawling up in a ball and just coping out….just saying “yes ( Read more... )