Myriad Announcements

[kikuko_kamimura]

1. Yes, I'm still alive.

2. Yes, all I do is work. But, my first project is now available as a free download both on the AppStore and Google Play: My Forged Wedding: PARTY. So if you're into romance sim type stuff and want to try it out, I would appreciate it! (There are in-app purchases for extra illustrations and whatnot, but I don't expect

Comments

[southenisland]

OH yeah the new Sailor Moon transformation sequence really sucks. It takes forever, as you pointed out and really, WHY 3D?! Urgh. People have called me elitist just because I've seen the earlier one when I expressed my dislike of the new seires, but as much as I want to, I can't like this. It's going to take a while to grow on me. >,

[jadesun]

Hey, you. It's been forever since I've been on LJ because my life has been so stagnate and boring and depressing... as well as the fact that no one updates anymore and I figured it was pretty dead around here. BUT I saw your FB post and went "hey, if she's posted, I go read it!" and so I read a few of your posts, back to when you got hired at your current company. Then I couldn't help myself wanting to "talk" with you here because... well, I can empathize in so many ways, and I remember how isolated and lonely I felt in Nagasaki doing nothing but working all week, and using the weekends to just try and get enough sleep to do it all again the next week (@_

[jadesun]

Also, there are times when I feel such nostalgia for Japan it hurts, and I REALLY want to go back. But I can never forget the severe emotional damage from those 2 years. I can't forget the hurtful things that happened, the prejudice, the isolation. I know the people in Tokyo are far more outwardly awful and rude than in the countryside, but I think I prefer it. Because they aren't lying to you. If you get past their prejudice, if they finally accept you, it's obvious. It's far better than the politely veiled immovable racism that I got from the other teachers in the countryside...especially when they tricked me into thinking they gave a damn and then showed their true colors and lack of empathy and understanding when I really needed to depend on them and tried to be friends. That betrayal was far worse than blatant disgust

[kikuko_kamimura]

I totally agree with people in the cities vs. Inaka People. I think some of it is the small town thing, where since there is literally nothing to do, people in small towns give so much more of a shit about people's personal lives--and you, as the foreigner, just have the disadvantage of being instantly recognizable, so anything you do is under scrutiny--and of course, they expect you to be this Flawless Ambassador of Every White Person Ever (regardless of where you are from or what color skin you actually have), but of course when you are a decent, intelligent, articulate person, that doesn't change their opinion of foreigners, and therefore doesn't change their opinion of you

[jadesun]

It's nice to finally talk to someone who gets how it feels... just to have that sense of being understood. Everything you said it exactly right. Especially the insincere invitations, and invitations to things 'because other foreigners are involved'. I don't want to get involved because other foreigners are there. If I wanted only "foreign" friends, I wouldn't be in Japan- I'd have stayed in the States! God, what a leap of logic that is, huh? I have such a love-hate relationship with Japanese people: I want to be their friend so badly and make a home for myself there, but because they're generally so racist, they make it almost impossible... which in turn makes me so angry at them. Why can't they just accept my admiration for parts of their culture, but accept that it's not perfect and the only thing worth recognizing on this whole planet? Why can't they just accept my existence and friendship and let me live peacefully with them? UGH

Ugh

[hina_camui]

Shinjuku/Ikebukuro/Ueno is pure shit, everyone is rude as hell. I've had people push me out of the way when I fumble with my crutches, wallet, and backpack while trying to buy train tickets.
The worst experience I've been having at train stations is when there are no elevators/escalators nearby and I have to use the stairs... I'm slow because of my crutches, and I've had people shove me and yell at me to use the elevator. One particular mother commented on me being a 障害者 and needing a caretaker... I've been pushed down the stairs a couple of times, luckily nothing broke besides my iPad but I COULD HAVE DIED.
The escalators specifically say not to run up/down them, and I can't balance myself without taking up the whole elevator space (which I do), but people still try to pass through/shove me if I leave maybe 10 CENTIMETERS of space.

Geez city people.

Re: Ugh

[kikuko_kamimura]

Oh my God having to try to navigate Shinjuku on crutches is a hell I cannot even imagine. I've done entire posts on how able-bodied me HATES that station and its rude-ass people. My station for work is Ebisu, and luckily other than the layout issues I know it's not as bad as most, but I'm still really dreading going back to work, especially those first few days