Anyone who knows me or has been following this journal for a while will agree - I have had some incredibly shit birthdays ( Read more... )

After my morning introspection I discovered I have officially lost another stone. That's nearly 30 pounds I've lost in total.

And I get to use another one of my new Firefly icons.

Can I hear a w00t!?

I'm feeling quite good today, like a big weight has been lifted (wonder why that is..)The agonising stomach pains have subsided but I'm still wary because the same thing happened yesterday morning and then by afternoon I was gritting my teeth again. I did end up calling NHS direct - they told me it's probably nothing, to take paracetamol and drink ( Read more... )

Had my final appointment at the gym today - it's been almost exactly 2 months since I had my first and only 6ish weeks of actual exercise.

( Quick comparison )

As you may have seen me say here before, I have great difficulty knowing what size I am. I have no clue where I fit in on the fat scale. I used to bug Rich sometimes - am I bigger or smaller than that girl? what about that one? This is mostly due to the fact that I was bullied at school and kids used to call me fat. When I got older and looked at ( Read more... )

In other (non-Ebay-related) news, I'm going to Scotland for my birthday!

In typical form, Rich spend weeks "trying to decide" what to do / where to go until I got annoyed and pretty much organised the damn weekend myself only using his money. Which makes me feel crappy to be honest but it was either that or I'd end up doing bugger all or rushing ( Read more... )

Today I walked about 4 miles. This is a huge distance for me and I'm rather surprised, impressed and proud that I made it.

However. Why, when I got home and went to weigh myself before I got in the bath, have I gained another pound??? This is simply not fair. Having someone who hasn't seen me in a few weeks comment on how much weight I'd lost made ( Read more... )

Losing enthusiasm for the gym. It happens to everyone and I knew it would happen to me. I have worked my socks off in that place and I'm generally more active than I ever have been so why did I just gain three pounds?? *cries* It's not fair. I knew the bubble would burst, the rapid weight loss couldn't last. I'm guessing the second stone is that ( Read more... )

Last night was good. I think I'd almost forgotten what a night out felt like because even with the crowded, smokey pub and then the crowded, smokey, dive of a club I still managed to feel like I had a good time.

Events of the evening included:

• Looking like this. +20 to body image
• Having my arse grabbed walking back from the bar. It may seem cheesey ( Read more... )

I stopped taking the meds on monday. I couldn't take the horrible dry mouth and stomach issues any more so I quit. And since then I've been feeling so much better in myself. I've felt more able to cope with everything and life doesn't seem quite so bad. It seems unlikely it'd be a coincidence. Either way, I'm feeling ok. Not great but better. And ( Read more... )