It took a whole term to write a frakking 1700 words for ENG 307. I can't even begin to express how much I hate myself right now.

Why did it have to be this term, God? What would you have me do?

eyes no, seriously, stop that, focus on the damn page. do it NOW. oh frak you. frak you and that stupid deadline. C'mon. just another 2.5 hours. then you can sleep because you'll be out of time. Frak.

Frak.

I already know it'll be my lowest GPA in the history of school, K-12, 1-4. Between burn-out, depression, seniorities, and realizing that people mean more to me than school does... seriously. Low.

I want to go to sleep.

Six weeks left to term, and I have 32,000 words to write between here and there. Oh snap. I also REALLY need to nail down a dissertation thesis. REALLY. I am RUNNING OUT OF TIME on this. >.

I think I 'm ashamed of my academic performance right now. Good Lord is it difficult to keep my mind on task. No matter what the topic is---all I seem to be good for is reading. That's it. Only it.

...which is a very BAD thing because I have PAPERS due. a LOT of papers due.

Insert a lot of very applicable curse words here. I want to use them. A 

WHAT THE HELL AM I WRITING?

o.o

Obviously the sleep deprivation is getting to me. *FACEPALM* MELODY. MAKE IT STOP. O_O

Please, oh please, oh PLEASE let it be spring break.

I think I've lost my enthusiasm for school. How do I get it back, guys?  What spell will bring it all into focus for me? What can I do? What?

JACKIE. MY SPRING WAS YOUR FALL. o.O THIS MAKES TOTAL SENSE!

And? It means it will DEFINITELY pass. **happy**

I don't like balance. Someone take it back and give me a knockout drug. Seriously. I need it.