So I've been dating this boy, Ben, for over 2 years now. That's a long time for me. The longest. Unless you count Tyler, which I don't because we never really dated. We're both Seniors in college. Well, he's a Senior, I'm a Super Senior about to graduate with a Masters in Business. And I guess I'll have to pull a Jenna Marbles and cry over my ( Read more... )

It hurts so much to see the people I used to be close with. Even when it comes to something as absurdly stupid as facebook. To see someone who used to spend every day with, share your every secret with, be happy without you. To not even respond to you. I know that in life you go through stages, some people move along with you, and others don't. ( Read more... )

Tomorrow, will be one week since my second Grandma died. Now all I have left is my Grandpa. They've been married for 60 years, and now he has an apartment all to himself. He has no idea what to do with himself. Getting close to people worries me, because it's inevitable to feel that pain eventually ( Read more... )

My trip to Ukraine was very emotional to say the least. It was nice to see family, and to be with them knowing they miss my grandma probably more than I do. It also helped me notice that I am not nearly as well versed as I would like to be in my culture. And that I have a lot of opportunities open to me in that country. But with the positive, there ( Read more... )

My Grandma died last night ( Read more... )

Finally pulled the band aid.... about two weeks too late. I hope he doesn't hate me, but it had to be done. I need to learn to stop rushing into things. I can't make things work right with people that aren't right. I can't just hope that if it starts I can manipulate it to be the right thing. I can't keep doing this to people. I'm waiting for his ( Read more... )

I'm fucked up ( Read more... )

So now that I'm not as emo as I was yesterday... Fuck it all, I can start from scratch. I'm going to put everything in order. I'm going to keep lists. I'm going to get it all done. It's a lot of little things, nothing too big ( Read more... )

I just want to start over. I love new beginnings, but I always fuck them up. I need a break right now, and there's really nothing I can do to get one. My attempt to surround myself with friends and people who care about me backfired. I am socially inept and I'm just too tired and worn out to deal with people ( Read more... )

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