I haven't written since before Chrimbo, so I guess it's about time that I did.  Weather's been nutsoid, almost 50 F. one day and 5 the next.  Today we've got a light dusting of snow.  For my New Year's res, I've given up fast food unless someone else suggests it or is buying it.  (I won't go and eat at any fast-food place by myself, despite the ( Read more... )

I feel ugly lately.  Not that I'm in an ugly mood, no.  I just feel really unattractive.  I looked at myself in the mirror yesterday before my shower and just felt repugnant.  That feeling is not being helped by the dreams I had last night, when I was rejected twice by the same guy in different scenarios.  In one I kept trying to talk to him and he ( Read more... )

Myeh, I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately.  I dreamed Chaz was neglecting to take care of my baby Toms and he got really sick.  I dreamed my Dad beat me, raped me, threw me against a wall, and my Mom wouldn't believe that he was hurting me.  I dreamed I was trying to hide someone from my parents, and I got caught and they were really ( Read more... )