Nightmares and Thoughtforms
Myeh, I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. I dreamed Chaz was neglecting to take care of my baby Toms and he got really sick. I dreamed my Dad beat me, raped me, threw me against a wall, and my Mom wouldn't believe that he was hurting me. I dreamed I was trying to hide someone from my parents, and I got caught and they were really, really pissed. I also dreamed a friend that I had way back in the old neighbor hood, who was friends with me in Middle School came to my house unannounced, and we had just nothing in common at all (not really a nightmare, but considering how I stress over awkward situations . . .) I wonder what it all means? I'm finally back at home and sleeping in my own bed and getting enough sleep, so why should I be trapped in thses bloody disturbing dreams?
Anyhoo, I was thinking today. Somehow, my mind got sent to "trickster" Gods, you know, the kind that exist to shake up the status quo. I remembered, in my Everyday Magic book that the author has used Murphy as a deity. WTF? You know, Murphy, as in "Murphy's Law"- If anything can go wrong, it, will. I didn't know Murphy existed as a spirit or God of any sort. I always thought he was either a real person, or some generic name someone just happened to slap in that philosophy because it had to be called something. But I thought later, well, so many people believe wholeheartedly in Murphy's law, and that energy has to go somewhere. Has the belief itself created Murphy as a powerful, godlike collective thought form? Has their been enough belief for a Murphy, the one who makes things go wrong simply because they can, to actually manifest as a spirit?
If this is so, is it possible to "create" Gods through strong thought, visualization, ritual? Beings that are actually bigger than the collective thoughts of those that created them? With a significant amount of energy, fervor, and careful meditation, would it be possible for a bunch of Lovecraft fanatics to actually manifest a Chthulu? They believe, and so it comes? {I wish they wouldn't do this because it would be extraordinarily bad for all involved, but this was a pretty striking example of a god that is blatantly fictional.}
If this is possible, where, then, can the line be drawn? If the raising of this energy is powerful enough, the belief fervent enough, can a being be created of existing thought energy? (Considering energy can neither be created or destroyed, only changes form.} To extraopolate this theory, could such a thought for gain matter and substance, since matter and energy are interchangeable according to Einstein. If this is so, what is it that distinguishes a thoughtform from somebody's fuckin' imaginary friend? ( I suppose the difference would be how you treat such a thing. Somewhere in the back of their subconscious, I think, people with "imaginary friends" always know they are not real. With thoughtforms, maybe they're not so sure about the non-existence of such beings.)
Were the homunculi in the alchemical process simply thoughts given form and matter via meditation, and perhaps all the work with the elements gathered the matter to make them "real"? Both chemical and philosophical elements{those being fire, water, earth, air, and spirit or fire, water, earth, metal and wood, if you take the Asian standpoint. As for me, I think there are NINE elements: Air, Fire, Water, Earth, Wood, Metal,Spirit [Quintessence, ether], Light and Darkness}) Most alcemical texts refer to the homunculus in a philosophical manner, maybe as a representation of the microcosm, "the small person", the world that exists within each of us. But what if thought could actually create form? Meditating Norse Shamans often had fetches, a guide that was an extension of the soul in animal form, but also a "fetch-wife" or "fetch-man". Could this be a form of the same concept?
Considering my increasing dissatisfaction with the world around me, and the certain desires I've been feeliong almost painfully, would it be possible for me to . . . no, surely not.
Then again, in some Indian mythology, the whole world is but a dream of the highest power, so . . . . hmmmmmmm. Maybe I've really gone off the feckin' deep end this time.
Anyhoo, I was thinking today. Somehow, my mind got sent to "trickster" Gods, you know, the kind that exist to shake up the status quo. I remembered, in my Everyday Magic book that the author has used Murphy as a deity. WTF? You know, Murphy, as in "Murphy's Law"- If anything can go wrong, it, will. I didn't know Murphy existed as a spirit or God of any sort. I always thought he was either a real person, or some generic name someone just happened to slap in that philosophy because it had to be called something. But I thought later, well, so many people believe wholeheartedly in Murphy's law, and that energy has to go somewhere. Has the belief itself created Murphy as a powerful, godlike collective thought form? Has their been enough belief for a Murphy, the one who makes things go wrong simply because they can, to actually manifest as a spirit?
If this is so, is it possible to "create" Gods through strong thought, visualization, ritual? Beings that are actually bigger than the collective thoughts of those that created them? With a significant amount of energy, fervor, and careful meditation, would it be possible for a bunch of Lovecraft fanatics to actually manifest a Chthulu? They believe, and so it comes? {I wish they wouldn't do this because it would be extraordinarily bad for all involved, but this was a pretty striking example of a god that is blatantly fictional.}
If this is possible, where, then, can the line be drawn? If the raising of this energy is powerful enough, the belief fervent enough, can a being be created of existing thought energy? (Considering energy can neither be created or destroyed, only changes form.} To extraopolate this theory, could such a thought for gain matter and substance, since matter and energy are interchangeable according to Einstein. If this is so, what is it that distinguishes a thoughtform from somebody's fuckin' imaginary friend? ( I suppose the difference would be how you treat such a thing. Somewhere in the back of their subconscious, I think, people with "imaginary friends" always know they are not real. With thoughtforms, maybe they're not so sure about the non-existence of such beings.)
Were the homunculi in the alchemical process simply thoughts given form and matter via meditation, and perhaps all the work with the elements gathered the matter to make them "real"? Both chemical and philosophical elements{those being fire, water, earth, air, and spirit or fire, water, earth, metal and wood, if you take the Asian standpoint. As for me, I think there are NINE elements: Air, Fire, Water, Earth, Wood, Metal,Spirit [Quintessence, ether], Light and Darkness}) Most alcemical texts refer to the homunculus in a philosophical manner, maybe as a representation of the microcosm, "the small person", the world that exists within each of us. But what if thought could actually create form? Meditating Norse Shamans often had fetches, a guide that was an extension of the soul in animal form, but also a "fetch-wife" or "fetch-man". Could this be a form of the same concept?
Considering my increasing dissatisfaction with the world around me, and the certain desires I've been feeliong almost painfully, would it be possible for me to . . . no, surely not.
Then again, in some Indian mythology, the whole world is but a dream of the highest power, so . . . . hmmmmmmm. Maybe I've really gone off the feckin' deep end this time.