close your eyes....

my aunt passed away this morning.  she was doing so well, she was fighting her cancer and winning.  an infection took over her body and stopped her heart.

her daughter sharon who passed away 22 years ago birthday was yesterday.

she called her mommy home.

it hasn't hit yet.  it has, but it hasn't.  it was out of nowhere.  ( Read more... )

January


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It has been CRAZY.  the drama from my birthday has died down.  brian is out of my life for good.  gone, erased, like he never existed.

shocker, erich is avoiding me again.  that boy is just the biggest drama king ever.  i ran into rachel and rich last night at the frog and i was so happy to see her but then i was like "eeek, could this be akward ( Read more... )

 
pictures from susie's birthday

soooo much fun


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blame it on a few drinks
whatever

i miss him, god i do
i want back in.

but for what? to break up again.

i don't know, talking and thinking in circles.
it'll be 3 weeks tomorrow, that's my problem. let's get passed a month and i'll be on my way to being ok.

oy vay

fucking shit,

i just lost the damn entry i wrote
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god i miss him ( Read more... )

So after a rocky couple of days, i'm doing a little better.  3rd day in a row i've woken up and not cried.

i spent the weekend at maria's.  it was much needed relaxation.  we just sat on the beach and slept.  then we would go home, crack open a few bottles of wine and sit on her deck and feel the breeze from the bay.

oh, and adam agreed to talk ( Read more... )

we broke up and mom had a mild heart attack....

i'll write more when i'm not so.....i dunno.....fucked up

I can't stop shaking my head ( Read more... )