Most of us have those folks we have loved who have hurt us deeply, whether they meant to or not. Many of us come away feeling that they were not deserving of our love, but when you come to think about it, are any of us? Love is such a powerful and wonderful thing, and we are simply and beautifully flawed as humans. The greatest thing about love ( Read more... )

If I should fly,
before I wake,
I pray my dreaming
spirit takes

a wondrous walk,
through meadows fair,
and in the blossoms
find you there.

If I should fall,
before I rise,
I pray my dreaming
spirit lies

beneath a bower
heavenly,
to wait in faith,
beside of thee.

So it's the big day. We start at 0200 and go all the way through tomorrow night. It'll be the last security shift I ever pull. It may very well be the last time I work at all. I have absolutely NO IDEA how I'm going to manage or how many days I'm going to be bedridden paying for it. But I did it one year on a broken toe and I'll be damned if I ( Read more... )

My OCD had me stuck this morning. I had a slowtime schedule and a regular recovery schedule and my brain couldn't decide which to do, thus locking me into inactivity. Finally managed to veer toward my normal routine again, at least until my surgery. Many, many revelations today, some of which I haven't mentally or emotionally processed yet.

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At yoga on Thursday, under the careful instruction of Feng, I came to the first of a series of conclusions, perhaps the first I'd been searching for when I decided to take this year of chastity and introspection upon myself. I've been bending my own rules ever so slightly, in spirit especially, and yet the reasoning for my initial resolution spoke ( Read more... )