The part of me that yearned for death, it burned as a star ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm trapped in limbo, gliding along but not really going anywhere and pretty much aimless. It's a little suffocating, not having any meaningful goals or feeling truly synced in with the rest of the world. On some days, it's nice to be able to sit back and just look at stuff, all the things you didn't have time to check out, all the ( Read more... )

Today I discovered that I hate Robert Frost. He's a good poet, I'll grant you that, because only an excellent writer can give you the means by which to hate him long after he's dead. I'm reading a book in which each chapter is headed by a quote from one of his poems, and I've been looking up the poems as I go along. Some I like, some love, some I'm ( Read more... )

If I should fly,
before I wake,
I pray my dreaming
spirit takes

a wondrous walk,
through meadows fair,
and in the blossoms
find you there.

If I should fall,
before I rise,
I pray my dreaming
spirit lies

beneath a bower
heavenly,
to wait in faith,
beside of thee.

I have pondered the unponderable,
stormed the wide walls, wandered fell and fen
and glade and dale, cast my net across the vale.
Sunk in sorrow, cried in joy, and yet...
I let you play me like a toy,
and in the end...

you were nothing I would get or buy,
you awful boy,
you were nothing but a lie.
-- Jade Lauron

Metta, or loving-kindness, is the act of well-wishing toward yourself or others. The general practice is to find or create a 'prayer' that is then recited silently over and over again (like a chant). Metta prayers should be said daily ( Read more... )

I took a look around my life
and it was bleak and empty.

Never you mind, I said
to crayola grey skies

I know the meaning of dark and lies
and grey may be neverending

But somewhere beyond the endless stone
is a candle to light within me.

Sky the color of cold,
an egg of light breaks over
a thinly threaded horizon.
My hands streaked with golden
as I try to stuff back the night.

My first apprenticeship day (as a sound technician) consisted mainly of me being completely lost, asking tons of questions, and for some reason having folks thank me for volunteering even when I seemed to get more in the way than anything else ( Read more... )

I am one step into the abyss ( Read more... )