i am either insanely stupid or just insane.

Do you ever replay your mistakes over and over in your head? I do. I torture myself with it.
Remember>good times>mistakes>reflect>rinse and repeat.

I'm ready for things to get better. Now is that time in the movie where its raining and you see flashes of what I once had [as this  depressing ass song plays] ( Read more... )

Last night mike and I ended up falling asleep at my house instead of his ( Read more... )

friday i had the first and hopefully last surgery of my life, and it sucked big fucking balls, and recovery sucks as well.
i am angry about it, i don't have time for this, and i can't have sex for a month.
it hurts to sit, it hurts to stand, it hurts to walk, it hurts to pee, it hurts to laugh, it hurts to cry, it hurts to cough, it hurts to shift ( Read more... )

i am not a pessimist, nor am i self loathing.
but jesus god, can shitty things PLEASE stop happening?

car broke down, got that fixed
tire went flat, still driving on spare
I'm quitting smoking [aka going fucking CRAZY]
not getting full paycheck because i forgot to turn in my timesheet on time [my fault I KNOW but damn]

i am so fucking broke.
they won't ( Read more... )