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[jackiezzz00]

I love my friends! You guys make me soo happy! and GAHH! paintballing was so much fun! but i have a lot of bruises =(

I like you* haha if it were only that easy.. lol

the fortune cookie told me to tell that special someone something but the fortune wasn't really mine..so? chhicken GOAAT!

umm Jeah.?!?..

im tired

Halloween? what should i be for

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hurt

[littlecryingboi]

oh I get it, your talking about me. I think your friends are stupid, they made me lose something very valuable that my mom gave me before she died.. then never said a single sorry or helped at all.. great friends right? yeah I can tell. and you? anyone can tell that youve only been my friend because you were obligated to since Jana was, you only hung out with me because Jana did and you never talk to me unless theres abselutely no one else in the entire universe to talk to, and even then chances are slim youd talk to me. and recently when you were complaiing of not enough time hanging out with your best friend Jana.. what ever happened to not enough time with Emil? i mean what the hell? I thought I was your friend too and that you wanted to spend time with me also.. no complaining about that. thanks alot. I feel really loved. what great friends I have. thats the respect I get.. and whats worse? Im ALWAYS made to look like the bad guy with everyone when im the one thats been hurt. how the hell do you think I feel? whatever, I hope you

Re: hurt

[jackiezzz00]

um, wow. i do miss you or i did?.. When i was going through that whole i miss jana thing i missed you too. but while thinking about that i thouight of last year and how you just forgot about jana and I while you were going through some kind of emotional crisis and it just completely broke my heart, and i never got a sorry or "i miss jackie" from you. so yeah, i do miss you now but im also confused. i kno this comment probably makes no sense, but it makes sense to me. and im not trying to mkae you look like a bad person. just dont say hurtful things about me, when it isnt even me your whole problem is revolving around. why the fuck would i get a good laugh out of losing a good friend? im sorry, but you say things sometimes that make no damn sense. and i hung out with you only because of jana?!?! are you shitting me? it was me that broght us all into a three best friend circle thing. omg i feel really used now. how can you say that? after all the time and friendship given to you? i even believe there was a point in our

Ive done my part

[littlecryingboi]

This is exactly why I always went into those emotional crisis moments. Because things like this happen and it makes me sick. If you took more time to talk to me... which you never have (admit it, you never talk to me and if you do its biefly to tell me about your day). You'd know I dont believe in apologies, and even with that in mind I apoligized publicly in a few entries for my behavior several times before which is the best anyone can get from me. Oh and.. I always mentioned you in journals and stuff in the times we havent talked, I even remember you even commented saying how its nice I still think about you even when we hadnt done much together or talked at that point. As far as the obligated friend goes, maybe in the beggining we were all equal but somewhere around the middle you just cast off and didnt seem to look like you gave a damn about anything concerning me. Even more so when things between me and Jana got started. Even if you did, it was that convincing cuz you always had this like "shield" against me as if you didnt

Re: Ive done my part

[jackiezzz00]

but you never try starting up a nice conversation with me. at least i, every now and then, ask you how you are, and whats up. you never ever talk to me, you dont even smile let alone say hi to me in the hallways at school, why

Re: Ive done my part

[littlecryingboi]

I dont start things. You can ask even Jana.. I NEVER call her, NEVER IM her, NEVER E-mail her.. I never start anything, even a conversation. I only respond and reply when people talk to me, call me, IM me, e-mail me ect.. Its just the way I am. I do remember the good times and I never said they meant nothing. I even sleep in the shirt you and Jana made me at the fair and its always meant alot but wether you see it or not there has always been a distance between you and me and I've always noticed that its a gap thats become bigger and bigger. I am actually glad youve been having fun and have been really happy, the only dissapointment is that its with (in my opinnion and belief) a bunch of losers. Just because I say so doesnt mean im taking it out on you or that its even my intention to so I'll apologize if you see it that way. I know im an asshole when it comes to people like them because they deserve every drop of rage and anger I have, you just get cought in the crossfire sometimes and im sorry that happens, but I wont stop until