It's officially been ten days since my last bottom line behavior. I'm pretty excited about that. I got my one week chip tonight. It's all nice and red. Yay!

Got some bad news. A second friend from high school has been killed this week. While I haven't heard the details yet, I'm piecing together he was shot in the back of the head after a deal gone ( Read more... )

I'm still trying to figure out what it is that causes me to act out. In the meantime, I've been doing plenty of acting out.

It started as my pre-birthday night celebration got out of hand which I reported on the 6th). I was incredibly sexually attracted to him. I pretty much knew that was going to happen.

Then on Sunday (the 7th). A bartender I had ( Read more... )

I acted out a few days ago. In my defense, it was my birthday and I was particularly drunk and with this particularly attractive guy. I mean... I pretty much knew before the night was even underway that it would probably result in some bottom line activities. But it was just too good of an offer to pass up. I know I'm self-justifying there but, ( Read more... )

It's been six days since I officially declared my sobriety. It's been nine days since my last bottom line behavior.

I didn't run today. I felt like I should but I've been so damn emotionally drained I just couldn't find it in me. I went to The Bar Formerly Known as Coco's for a Bud Light and Jack and Coke. People always say drinking by yourself is a ( Read more... )