Handing in my dissertation this week! It’s weird for the last 6 months of work to finally be coming to a close. I’m reluctant to hand it in, in part because it’s so personal and I’m afraid of rejection (there’s still time to do a traditional paper!) and also in part because I don’t know what I’ll do with myself without it hanging over my head. Yes ( Read more... )

I am being COMPLETELY IRRATIONAL right now, but facebook decided that alex and i broke up for some reason? he hasn't been online so obviously nothing's wrong, but now it's niggling my brain along with the 10,000 other doubts. bastards! actually, "10,000 other doubts" wouldn't be a bad title for a book. hmm ( Read more... )

Don't get me wrong,  I love (school) work- free summers just as much as the next person, but at the same time I tend to get bored, irritable, and insecure in the summer. It must have something to do with the fact that I spend all day painting walls thinking about The Future instead of trying to comprehend Anglo-Saxon literature. Working 40 hours a ( Read more... )

Dammit! LJ just deleted the top half of my entry for no apparant reason. So of course the sentiment is gone and now I'm going to have to try and recapture it for you. Writing was what was important in the first place, though.

The Alex issue has been resolved. He didn't intend to ask Monica on a date but realized in retrospect that that's exactly ( Read more... )

Sometimes, everything's just fine. Other times, the space and the silence between us is so thick you'd have to cut it with a machete.

I don't want to be in this relationship anymore. I care and you don't. I want it to work and you don't. Why should I try when you don't give a damn? I made sacrifices. You didn't. I was committed. You weren't. I was honest. You weren't. I told you everything. You didn't. I am done trying ( Read more... )

Much has happened since my somewhat franctic post last week. I'm feeling a wide variety of emotions, some of which I've included in my last post ( Read more... )

Really, how long did you want out ( Read more... )

Okay. I promised myself I'd sit down and write about it. Problem is, sitting is not so fun, as I bruised my tailbone skiing this weekend. ouch. That, however, is irrelevant. I'm calm now, collected, and in denial. I will start with a play-by-play. You all know about the breakdown in communication that happened last Saturday, but I haven't let you ( Read more... )

It's 12:15 and he STILL hasn't called. Do I have a right to be pissed? We agreed that he should call if he's going to be 7 HOURS LATE. We agreed to call if we'd be an hour late. What the hell? I don't think he's still at work. I don't care if he's out with his friends from work, but if that's the case than I could go to bed now rather than waiting ( Read more... )