The depressed Allen......................

[isaiditsallen]

I don't want to talk to anyone right now. I don't want to see anyone. I just want to crawl in a hole in the ground and disappear. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed. I can't believe this happened to me. It was just supposed to be a simile party. Lavi--no, I don't even want to say his name right now. I don't want to think about him, don't want to see

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[usagilovebooks]

Look, Allen 'm sorry. I really didn' think tha' it would end up lik' tha'. I thought tha two of ya could 'ave fun at tha party wit' out runnin' in ta each oth'r. Ya 'ave ta believe meh. I didn' mean fer it ta 'appen lik' tha'. I jus' wanted my two best friends ta 'ave fun wit' me. I didn' think ya would run in ta each oth'r or tha' it would lead ta an embarrassing situation. 'm sorry, Allen, real sorry.

[isaiditsallen]

I don't have to believe you, Lavi. *shakes his head* I know you're sorry and I know you didn't mean for it to end like that. Still, I.... *turns away* I need some time. I need to be alone. I can't talk to you for a while, Lavi.

[usagilovebooks]

Come on, Allen. Don' be lik' tha'. I'm tryin', really tryin'. It's been lik' a week since we talk'd last. Talk ta me.

[isaiditsallen]

*still ignoring him* *turns away*

[yuu_chan_kanda]

[For once, she's going to be very mature

[isaiditsallen]

Thank you, Yuu-chan. I don't feel so bad today. I guess that time makes it less embarrassing. I thought the rule was only accepting opening drinks. Well, I broke that rule, too, since the girl handed me an open glass and accept. I'll try to be more careful in the future. Thanks for the warning.

*winces at Lavi's name* I'm mostly over the incident now but it's still hard facing L--"Somebody" even now. I might take your advice. *thinks* Um, how can I not be embarrassed when I run into Kanda? I mean, I ka-ka-ka.... *flushes* Kissed him. That's not normal.

I know I'm strong. *finishes reading her sentence* Oh.... *scrubs a hand down his face but he has a small smile* Yes, well... *smiles and shrugs helplessly, unsure of what else to say*

[yuu_chan_kanda]

If you feel embarrassed because you kissed him, just remember, he feels just as embarrassed. He was the one kissed, which is also embarrassing. Oh, and he didn't shove you away or punch you. So don't feel embarrassed. *smiles and winks*

[usagilovebooks]

Oi! Don' tell 'im tha'! Tha's not fair! 'Sides, this is none y'er business. I didn' do nothin' so bad tha' warrants or deserves ignorin'. I made a mistake, tha's all. A really big mistake, yea, but tha's all.

[moyashixhater]

*crosses arms and looks away, embarrassed* So you really didn't know I was going to be at the party?

[isaiditsallen]

No, I really didn't know you were going to be at that party. *trying to take Yuu-chan's advice and not be embarrassed in front of Kanda* *still self-concious*

[moyashixhater]

So... You personality changes when your drunk? *still standing there with his arms crossed, looking away*

[isaiditsallen]

Um, yeah. *fidgets* It kinda, well, changes. I guess, I'm more like who I want to be?

[mizu_melody]

You know, they say your more honest when your drunk then when your sober. I mean, I know it's probably not what you want to hear or anything. But that's what everyone says.

I'm Demyx, by the way. Nice to meet you.

[isaiditsallen]

[I'm sorry. I really do love this face XD]

Um, no. I've never heard that. So, you're saying that when I'm perfectly honest, I like hugging people, making out with random girls, and pissing off Kanda? *is worried* Well, I do like hugging people. Um, that was actually my second kiss, so I don't think making out with random people is really my thing. And it's not like I try to piss of Kanda. We just kind of...have that effect on each other.

Hello Demyx. *holds out a hand to shake* Nice to meet you. I'm Allen Walker.

[mizu_melody]

[He laughs.] Nah. Well, you do stupid things too. I just meant, y'know, you kinda lose that ability to realize the consequences of what you do. So your not held back by your worries. You kiss people you wouldn't normally kiss. Not because you don't like 'em but because your afraid of how they'll react or what people would think. You don't think like that when your drunk. You just think 'hey, this person's cute. I wanna kiss them.'

[isaiditsallen]

[His hand kind of hangs there for a minute before dropping to his side. Okay, so no shaking hands. Gotcha.]

Okay, that explains the girl. {trying not to go there but he's already there.] Um, please don't tell me that I secretly wanted to kiss Kanda. Is that what you're saying? I mean, Kanda's pretty cool and all, but he's a jerk to me. Besides, he hates me. I mean, he really really hates me. So, no matter how um, cool or you know, *mumbles something incoherent* he looks, I wouldn't kiss him. [Thinking, "Darn, I'm screwed. I guess I really did want to kiss him. But why...?"]

..........I'm wanted to kiss him, didn't I?