The depressed Allen......................
I don't want to talk to anyone right now. I don't want to see anyone. I just want to crawl in a hole in the ground and disappear. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed. I can't believe this happened to me. It was just supposed to be a simile party. Lavi--no, I don't even want to say his name right now. I don't want to think about him, don't want to see his face. Somebody told me it was just going to be a simple party, that it would be fun. Somebody lied.
It wasn't a small or simple party. It was huge and elaborate. It wasn't just a couple of people. There were people everywhere. It wasn't crowded or anything. The place was so big that even with so many people, there was plenty of room. Even so, I had fun. I was having a good time. Somebody told me that they would meet me at the party so I was waiting for Somebody to show. I talked with a lot of people and I got to know several of them. I really was having a good time. Then I ran into Kanda. Literally. Somebody hadn't warned me he was going to be here so I was totally unprepared. Especially not for an encounter like that.
You might laugh when I say we ran into each other literally. I have to admit, it was kind of funny. I was trying to regain balancing the piece of cake I had in my hand. I'd been shaking hands with two different people at the same time and ended up balancing my plate on the crook of my elbow. A little known fact about me is that I used to work as a waiter. I learned how to balance plates and platters on most any part of my arm. I was focusing on the plate and didn't look up in time. I ran into Kanda, who promptly spilled his drink all over me as I lost my cake in his shirt. I think he was more annoyed about spilling his drink than running into me. Still, I would've laughed the incident off if he hadn't glared at me like it was completely my fault. If he'd been paying attention, he wouldn't have run into me! I wasn't the only one at fault! Besides, I didn't even know he was going to be there!
Then some little girl, a pretty petite little thing, came flouncing up to him. She led him away, telling him she could get him a change of clothes and a new drink. Like he was more important than me. I was left standing there, completely humiliated, as other people laughed at me. I managed to laugh it off but I felt terrible. She eventually came back with a drink as an "apology" which I downed as quickly as I could. It tasted off but I just wanted something to take my mind off the incident. I didn't realize it was alcohol or else I wouldn't have drank it. I learned traveling with my Master that I have a low alcohol tolerance when I'm depressed. Normally, it's almost impossible to get me drunk but when I'm depressed, for some reason I get drunk very easily. After I was drunk, I went around hugging people. I even hugged Kanda! Moreover, I went and had more alcohol. After that, my personality changed completely and I ended making out with a girl I barely knew. It was only when Kanda dragged me off her that I began to sober up. Even that wasn't enough though!
I kissed him! I kissed Kanda! I kissed him on the cheek and called him "pretty". I'm so humilated. I want to crawl in a hole as disappear. I want to vanish. I'll never live this down. Kanda probably wants to kill me. I just--I hope a new mission comes up soon so I can forget all about this. I wouldn't even mind looking for my Master.
It wasn't a small or simple party. It was huge and elaborate. It wasn't just a couple of people. There were people everywhere. It wasn't crowded or anything. The place was so big that even with so many people, there was plenty of room. Even so, I had fun. I was having a good time. Somebody told me that they would meet me at the party so I was waiting for Somebody to show. I talked with a lot of people and I got to know several of them. I really was having a good time. Then I ran into Kanda. Literally. Somebody hadn't warned me he was going to be here so I was totally unprepared. Especially not for an encounter like that.
You might laugh when I say we ran into each other literally. I have to admit, it was kind of funny. I was trying to regain balancing the piece of cake I had in my hand. I'd been shaking hands with two different people at the same time and ended up balancing my plate on the crook of my elbow. A little known fact about me is that I used to work as a waiter. I learned how to balance plates and platters on most any part of my arm. I was focusing on the plate and didn't look up in time. I ran into Kanda, who promptly spilled his drink all over me as I lost my cake in his shirt. I think he was more annoyed about spilling his drink than running into me. Still, I would've laughed the incident off if he hadn't glared at me like it was completely my fault. If he'd been paying attention, he wouldn't have run into me! I wasn't the only one at fault! Besides, I didn't even know he was going to be there!
Then some little girl, a pretty petite little thing, came flouncing up to him. She led him away, telling him she could get him a change of clothes and a new drink. Like he was more important than me. I was left standing there, completely humiliated, as other people laughed at me. I managed to laugh it off but I felt terrible. She eventually came back with a drink as an "apology" which I downed as quickly as I could. It tasted off but I just wanted something to take my mind off the incident. I didn't realize it was alcohol or else I wouldn't have drank it. I learned traveling with my Master that I have a low alcohol tolerance when I'm depressed. Normally, it's almost impossible to get me drunk but when I'm depressed, for some reason I get drunk very easily. After I was drunk, I went around hugging people. I even hugged Kanda! Moreover, I went and had more alcohol. After that, my personality changed completely and I ended making out with a girl I barely knew. It was only when Kanda dragged me off her that I began to sober up. Even that wasn't enough though!
I kissed him! I kissed Kanda! I kissed him on the cheek and called him "pretty". I'm so humilated. I want to crawl in a hole as disappear. I want to vanish. I'll never live this down. Kanda probably wants to kill me. I just--I hope a new mission comes up soon so I can forget all about this. I wouldn't even mind looking for my Master.