"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine..."

[justbeingaqueen]

Who: justbeingaqueen and woman_or_a_girl
What: A priceless gift
Where: Maternity Unit, Portland Hospital, London
When: About 12 hours after THISKurt knew that this was what euphoria felt like. He had felt it once before in his life, and that was on his wedding day. This time, however, it was coupled with absolute awe, shock, and a dazed feeling of trying to catch his feet after

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[woman_or_a_girl]

After the long hours of rest, Quinn felt a million times better. Still tired and sore, but much better, and she was more than ready to officially meet the tiny girl she'd carried inside of her -- the precious gift to Kurt and Blaine that she had been a grateful part of making. Right after the baby's birth, Kurt had thanked her for carrying the precious cargo for them for the last nine months, but honestly despite all the awkward pregnancy stuff, and the endless hours of painful labor, Quinn was so thankful and grateful that Kurt and Blaine had been willing to share such an intimate and special part of their life with her. They could just as easily have said, "Thanks, but no thanks," to her offer, but they'd considered it, and given her the chance to share a wonderful connection with their family that went above and beyond the normal ranks of fag and hag

[justbeingaqueen]

Kurt laughed through his tears, albeit bashfully. He had to nod and shoot her a sheepish smile. "Yes, well, I haven't exactly been myself lately at all. I feel like making you all sign contracts in blood to never, ever speak of my shameful events as a sympathetically pregnant daddy-to-be. Blaine kept telling me over and over again that he just knew I was the biological father, but I wouldn't believe him. I guess I was scared to believe him, you know? I thought I could rock this having a baby thing, but when it all started happening and becoming real, it wasn't just theory anymore. It was actually happening and my brain and body short-circuited on me. I've seriously been an atrocious person to be around at times..." he confessed, tugging his lips to the side with a guilty smile

[woman_or_a_girl]

The fact was, Quinn had always had an inkling that it was Kurt who was the biological father. But then there were times she thought it was Blaine, too. But at the end of the day, it had been the fag to her hag who'd made the baby. Yet another deep connection that she would share with Kurt as she got to step into the role of proud Aunty Quinn now that the 24/7 babysitting phase was over. "Who would've ever guessed in high school that you of all people would be the next one to knock me up?" she teased. "I signed nothing, and make no mistake, it will show up in my book, too," she added, but her eyes never left Kurt's face. "You're glowing... I know it's usually expectant mothers they say are glowing, but you've totally got it down to an art, honey."

"Maybe not to you," Quinn replied, her tone playful. "She was very real to me for the however many hours she was trying to make an escape from my girl parts." Pausing as she watched Kurt look at his daughter, she gave a fond smile. "It was all worth it to see this, babe. I know there were

[justbeingaqueen]

Kurt laughed softly and even though he knew Quinn had a secure hold on his daughter, he was still reflexively fussing with the folds of her blanket to make sure it was neat and smooth tucked in around her. "Now that is definitely not something that would have been predicted in the yearbook. I'm pretty sure there would have been more likelihood that I knocked Blaine up than that. Just like my loving brother said to me earlier when he saw her, 'Dude, all I can think of now is you jizzing in a cup'. What am I surrounded by, seriously? That was months ago, but suddenly it's very real that Kurt Hummel is capable of baby-making," he joked and stroked the top of the receiving blanket. "She's just so content. She's hardly cried. She's not a fan of being unwrapped. She let everyone know of that one earlier when they wanted to check her little reflexes. Our little princess is a lady

[woman_or_a_girl]

It hit Quinn suddenly just how tiny the baby was as she made sure that she was safely tucked into her arm. "You felt so much bigger coming out," she said, smiling through the flood of tears. Shaking her head with a fond eyeroll at Finn's assessment of the situation, Quinn turned the warmth of her smile up to Kurt's face for a moment, said smile only widening when she realized that he had never taken his eyes off of Kyra-Belle. "Leave it to Finn. But you are, darling. And God, not only capable of making a baby, but capable of slotting right into being a daddy... I think you were born for it. I really do. You thought once upon a time that you probably would never be a dad, but here you are, owning it, and rocking it amazingly. She's so beautiful, Kurt." Choked up for just a moment, Quinn was silent, listening as Kurt told her about his daughter's little personality, already developing. "As if she could be anything but a lady with our DNA," she teased, giving Kurt's hand a warm squeeze with her free one before bringing it under the baby

[justbeingaqueen]

Kurt, too, was awed by how tiny their daughter was, but it was just another facet to indicate to him that despite thinking they were prepared for this... they weren't. There was no amount of anticipating or preparation that could be enough to cover the experience of having your first child and not having any clue about children or babies prior. Kurt had been around kids, but it was just a whole other ball game knowing that you were the reason their little life had come to exist, and now you were the one who were going to teach them and protect them and cuddle them when things felt bad. He started to tear up again at these thoughts and gave a little wave of his hand before he fanned at his face and dug some tissues from his pocket he was forced to carry around with because of the bursts of happy tears that kept hitting him and Blaine. He patted at his eyes with the Kleenex and let out a sigh at his own emotions as he looked down at his daughter again, caressing the blanket again

[woman_or_a_girl]

Quinn shook her head firmly at Kurt. "No, no, no, no crying, honey... How is a loving and hormonal fag hag supposed to keep from crying when her fag is doing it in bucketloads?" she asked, but her tone was loving, even as her tears streaked her cheeks again. "Okay fine," she continued teasingly. "Keep crying, but your baby mama wants tissues with lotion." It was gorgeous. Kurt literally couldn't stop touching his daughter, fussing over her, being beautiful and affectionate with her, and making Quinn just cry even more. "I think I'm still wrapping my mind around this whole thing... Around you and Blaine really being daddies, and the fact that she's so gorgeous and she looks just like you." The sheer warmth and beauty in the whole scene was touching, and Quinn would always be grateful that this had all come about. That her fag and his husband would be raising this beautiful little person together. That Blaine would be able to look at his daughter and see his husband, and that Kurt would see his own features in this beautiful tiny

[justbeingaqueen]

Kurt got up to go and collected the new box of tissues with lotion from the modern dresser by the window. The room was more like a hotel room than a hospital room, very beautifully decorated with light wood and pastels, giving a tranquil environment for post-natal care. Quinn had the TV, her laptop with internet access, anything she could need to rest and relax in the wake of the birth, even if her hands-on job was done. She was going to be expressing milk for the baby until they could transition her to formula, but that was mostly it. Before now, Kurt had been indifferent to the breast-feeding versus bottle thing. There had been an agreement that if the baby was born with any medical issue, Quinn would breast-feed, but if she was healthy, they would stick to bottle so Kurt and Blaine could have that avenue of bonding. Now Kurt was relieved at their choice, because he had discovered that feeding her was a massive important part of this for him. There was something intimately beautiful to share with their baby daughter, and she was

[justbeingaqueen]

"I know this wasn't one of those freakishly cold surrogacies where it is all about money and buying babies and stuff. It was far from that, and we know you don't want any money for any of this. You were happy to just have the medical expenses all covered, and that's fine. They are. But... we know that all this probably isn't as cut and dry and we all initially thought, and that any notion of you just hand Kyra-Belle over to us and walking back to your life as it stood isn't even on the cards. We know that you have your book to write, and that was always part of the plan, but beyond that and beyond this, you didn't really know what was coming next. It was impossible to know how anyone would feel after all of this, and I think right now everyone just feels like, well, that we all want to be close. So, we just wanted to tell you that you're welcome to stay with us as long as you like, as long as you need. I know you won't be hands-on in raising her or anything, but you're more than welcome to be roomies with us. But, um, we also want to

[woman_or_a_girl]

Quinn took the box of tissues gratefully, wiping her tear filled eyes and her nose, which was starting to run by virtue of the crying that just wouldn't ever quite seem to stop. Still, they were tears (and snot?) of joy, and and Quinn wasn't complaining. This was the happiest she'd ever been in her life, if she were honest. Back in high school, Quinn had never foreseen Kurt becoming a father. He and Blaine had been very happy together, and never mentioned longing for children of their own. Then again, it hadn't ever been something they thought they'd be able to do. And Kurt had never been one for dwelling extensively on what he couldn't have. But through the gifts of modern science, and more than that, a love that was far deeper than any business arrangement could've been through a surrogacy agency or some such thing, Kyra-Belle Hummel-Anderson was here. And her daddies were taking to fatherhood like it was what they were born to do. And honestly, Quinn wasn't convinced that it wasn't.

"You do look exhausted," Quinn concurred. "But

[justbeingaqueen]

Kurt gave a soft laugh while his eyes yet again lowered to his new baby daughter and he stroked the back of his finger gently over he soft cheek. "I really am. I can't remember ever being this exhausted in my life. I think it skimmed close in those few days after Blaine had his accident, but this is happy exhaustion. It's just like I don't want to close my eyes, or I'll miss something. Aerosmith is my new anthem. I want to know everything going on and all the things they want to teach us, and they're probably seriously getting sick of me now because I keep asking them to repeat every little thing so I can remember it when we get home. And there is seriously a lot to remember. It's becoming starkly obvious how little I knew about babies. I didn't even know how to properly burp her. Poor little thing was probably sitting there thinking 'Bloody hell, just tip me up a little more, and I'll work with you, daddy'. Instead, she just gave one of those warning cries that I was clearly on the wrong track and dealt with business out the other

[woman_or_a_girl]

Quinn's hand rested gently on Kyra-Belle's chest, fascinated by the rise and fall against her hand and the beat of her tiny heart. It wasn't as if she didn't know that babies breathed and their hearts beat, but actually seeing and feeling the sensations was enough to choke her up again. With a smile at Kurt, she shook her head. "Honey, we made a heartbeat, and tiny lungs, and like... Perfection." Shaking her head again she looked down at Kyra-Belle's face. "We're the best fag and hag team ever, you know." Laughing out loud at the assertion that Kyra-Belle's gastrointestinal "issues" were Blaine's doing, Quinn gave a small shake of her head. "That's an excellent story, babe. And people say two men can't make a baby? Clearly, Blaine got his own genes into the mix somehow

[justbeingaqueen]

Kurt touched his lips, tearing up happily again as he nodded. The image of his daughter swum with the tears and he mopped them up again, sniffling. It was going to be a little while yet before the enormity of this whole thing stopped him wanting to sob happy tears all over everyone. "I can't believe she exists. I keep looking at her and touching her to make sure she is real. I know it's such a huge thing for everyone, but for me and Blaine, this is our whole life changing. Nothing is ever going to be the same again. It's not just him and me anymore, it's him, me and our princess. I spent so much of this whole thing worrying I would suck or I wouldn't know what to do, but now I just want to know how to do it all so I can be the best daddy she could ever hope for. Well, second only to Blaine. He's just got the natural thing happening. He's so beautiful with her. And I watch him nursing her and it's like everything is perfect in the world. I couldn't anticipate any of this. I tried. I tried to plan it all down like a fine art, but there